Hi Robi!
It`s been a while! I`m sorry for being such an inconsistent blogger...I haven`t forgotten the blog, just when I think about it, I don`t feel like I have anything to write! I mean, I guess there is always something to write about, but my life has been quite unevventful lately, so there`s not a whole lot in the way of stories and stuff. How are you doing? That's kind of surprising, that people aren't as friendly as they are said to be. Maybe it's just when they aren't in Newfieland :P
Are the kids nice at least? It is actually so cool that you have an ACTUAL job! You know, like the kind of job a real live adult would have, not just a kid. But then, I guess you are a real life adult now, so it makes sense.
Have you met any boys over there? :P
You know, now that I don't have any girl friends, the only girls I really talk to are Stephanie, my sister, who hass been in a relationship for 3 years, and my friend Erin sometimes, who is also in a relationship. On the one hand, I miss boy talk, but on the other, I really don't! Because I always felt like I had to have something to contribute. Like there was something wrong with me or I was boring or whatever if I didn't have any boy stuff going on. Now that I don't have to prove myself (and there are no boys I am attracted to and I have no social life so I don't meet them lol), I'm like, it's kinda nice not to have to deal with boys! I mean, there are some obvious downsides, but life is so much simpler without boys. For now, it's quite nice.
Anyways, wanna hear what I have been doing lately?
Well, I go to college, and I go to work, and I watch the Office and I read and I go to Buddhist meditation once a week and...that is about it. I hang out with my family, and you know what? I'm happy doing this! I never thought I would be, but I am! I mean, I'm not happy all the time and I don't think I would be if I thought this is what I was going to be doing forever, but for now it's really nice.
It has given me a lot of time to learn about different things and think about what it is I want to do in my life. Of course, I still don't really know but I have come up with a bit of a "plan" for what I want to do in the nearer future. I think this summer, I am going to go stay at an ashram that is in southern BC near the Rockies, and stay there for a couple months or whatever. There young people work, and do silent meditation while they are working, and stay for free. I talked to a young woman who went and she really loved it and said I for sure should go so...now I have to right! Anyways, it sounds really awesome so I'd like to do that.
And then after that, I want to go back to India and stay at an ashram there. The place where I went where I stayed at an ashram, I want to go back to that place.
You know, it is weird because I really thought I wanted to go to south america, and travel there, and I do, but every time I think of myself going somewhere, I just picture myself in Rishikesh, so I think that means I should go back there. I think I really have a lot to learn, and I think the thing is, I can learn about all these places but that won't help me much because what I actually need to do is learn about myself. I have realized that I just have no idea what I want, or what I want to do, and I mean, I know that is normal, but I really feel like I should at least try to figure it out. And I think that is a good way for me to do that.
So I think maybe I'll stay there for a year, and then who knows what I'll do after that! It is way too far in the future to guess at...I mean a million things could change between now and then!
The thing I do know though, is that I want to be absolutely nothing like my dad. I'm not even joking when I say I would probably rather kill myself. He lives a completely joyless existance. I don't think he ever smiles. I don't think he even remembers why a person would want to smile, because sometimes he tries to smile but it's fake and so it just ends up looking scary and sad. Ugh. He works the same job he has for 30 years, he doesn't enjoy it, he comes home and sits on the couch and watches tv. He goes grocery shopping.
Is that even a life? Can you actually call someone alive when they don't feel any joy? It's hard to even live with. Like, it certainly makes me feel very negatively whenever he is in the room. He has such strong negative energy that if we are both reading in the same room, I start to feel so hopelessly miserable and angry that I actually have to leave. If I ever end up like that (and I'm doing my best to figure out how not to) please just shoot me. If my mere presence is enough to make someone miserable, then what is the point?
My mom has an injury, so she can't even go anywhere or do anything most of the time, but she is alive. She thinks and she loves people and she does experience life. My dad can do things, but he doesn't seem to feel anything. I would so much rather be like my mom.
What would be really nice though, if I could remain both physically and mentally functionable into middle age. Hopefully genes don't play a role in this.
Hopefully I can figure out a way to actually be alive. You know?
Anyways, can you tell that my dad is in the room? It makes me so depressed and he isn't even talking or anything! But when he isn't here, I am mostly happy. And I do live in his house so I can't exactly complain. Just, you know, I make observations.
Anyways, I guess that's it for me! If something interesting happens I will tell you about it :P
Oh yah, guess what, I made a friend! He's in two of my classes at school, and we've hung out a couple times and talked about philosophy, and we both are interested in talking about those things and it is so nice to meet someone who is! You know, I get really tired of small talk and everything, I mean who isn't who works in customer service long enough, so it is so nice to talk about significant things, and things that I actually spend my time thinking about.
Anyways, hopefully we continue hanging out because I really enjoy it.
Greg and I haven't really been hanging out lately, so it's good to have at least someone outside my family to hang out with!
Anyways, looking forward to hearing more about how you're doing over there!
Edna
Nov 14, 2010
Sep 24, 2010
Life of a semi-teacher ^^
Hi Edna!!
I'm so happy that you write again! I must say, I was worried you were bored by this now, but seems that you still have inspiration, which is great. And I thought about you recently, like since monday, I saw a girl at the school where I work, and she really looks like you! I wonder actually what you looked like when you were her age, about 11, but she does have the same kind of features in her face, it's weird. Tho of course you are unique, ahah! Speaking of where I work, its going well, its been now 2 weeks since I started and the kids like me I think. Most of them see me walking around and they just smile a lot and say "bonjour", all proud, but since I'm not suppose to know English, they never talk to me much because they don't know enough French to hold a conversation :P. But it's ok, it'll get better with some time, I guess. I don't know how, but I find anglophones kids are not like francophones, like they dont act the same, and they dont think the same way... I founded that too when I was babysitting Leah and Flynn back at the Creek. But kids in general are fun and curious, so I like them both :). And it's so weird now that I'm part of the staff in the school, I get to eat lunch with the other teachers, which I never thought would have happen! I get to hear them talk about their work, to watch them as what they really are outside work, its fascinating! Same thing when I'm in a class, I'm the one who decides who gets to talk and who is the winner, and I'm the one writing on the board and all, I love it! Ahaha it sounds so childisch, but thats how I think when I'm working. Like, I dont know about you, but when I was a kid, I would always think "if I was the teacher, I would have done this and all", and now I get to be one, sort of ^^.
Beside work, life is pretty quiet here too. I mean social life :P. My roommates are nice, but one is always in her room with her boyfriend or at his house, and the other one is away sometimes but never tell me what she is up to or anything, and I never dare to ask her... So I'm pretty much always at home when not working. But I do sometimes go outside to take a walk. The city is pretty here, tho really hilly, like you always have go up and down hills wherever you walk. So theres not much people walking around here, which means people drive all the time. But for myself, I do walk anywhere I go, like I went twice to the Wal-Mart to get stuff for the appartment, which was 45 minutes of walk, but once there, I was up the hill and the view on the city was great :). You would like it here, we are surrounded by mountains, and the sea is not that far from the city. I can't wait too for the leaves to turn red, people talk about it already, its gonna be beautiful outside. For now its not as cold as I expected it, which is good, and we had mostly cloudy days but not that much rain. But back to social life, I planned on going to Stephenville next week-end, which is a city an hour away from here, where a monitor like me lives. We took the plane together to get her and we shared a room at the training session in Quebec city, so we know eachother ok. Its great that we get along, and we talk throught facebook about our work days, to tell eachother advices and hints :). And its good to have a Quebec presence close by ^^. But for now, I only planned on doing laundry and cleaning this week-end, bleh :P. Adult life I guess.
I feel sorry for your grand-mother, hope for you that she gets well soon :). And about your friend Greg, well I hope he gets the hint, if you ever gave him hints about your real intentions.. ;). Its good to hear that you find college interesting and you are still into travelling, which I never doubted tho. Tell me whenever you find where you want to go to! For myself, I already planned on spending next summer on this small island in St. Laurent Gulf call Iles-de-la-Madeleine with my sister! Its not as exotic as the Caribbeans or anything but you should google it, its pretty neat, and the beaches are awesome. I went there with my family about 12 years ago (wooow I can actually say that!), and we loved it! We want to find a job there and a place to stay for couple of weeks. I'm excited because I havent travel with my sister since our last family trip at Christmas in 2005. And we'll get to be on our own, its gonna be great!
Thats it from me for now, I will write later tho about my week-end in Stephenville. I'm actually going because we got hired to animate a group of kids for the Saturday for couple of hours, it'll be fun, and we will be paid! Ahaha!
Wish you good luck at school, and thanks for keeping this blog alive :D
- Robi XxxxxX
Sep 20, 2010
Hey Robie!
How is life in Corner Brook? I want to hear all about it...I got your text the other day. Sorry I didn't anwer it...I was asleep when it came and then decided to answer by writing a blog post instead! It is so much better than texting.
Did I tell you I have a friend in Halifax from Corner Brook? He loves it, even got (or is getting? Can't remember.) a tatoo syblolic of it on his arm! His name is Kerry Martin, if you ever come across him :P
How are the kids? Are you enjoying teaching them? Is your roommate nice?
That's so exctiting, that you moved there!
Things here are pretty....well, I don't want to say uneventful, but I can say that my lifestyle is very different than what it was in Halifax. I have a very minimal social life...only my friend Greg still lives here of my old friends, and lately he seems to be pursuing me in a way that is innapropriate for our platonic friendship, if you get my drift. I am not interested in being anything other than friends with Greg, so I'm hesitant to call him up too often and give him the wrong idea. When we do hang out, it's fun though.
I have a shitty job at the grocry store that I am thinking I have to replace soon. I am so sick of looking for a job that I have been putting it off for ages already, but I hardly get any hours and it's very boring and well...I know I could do better so I should at least try. If I get a serving job I'll make way more money, and be able to travel right when college gets out instead of having to work for the summer too. Either way, I intend to be travelling again soon.
But I really do need a better job in order to be able to do so. That is the truth of the matter. I've also been thinking about trying to write online for a living. That way I can continue to do so while I travel, which would really be ideal. I need to dedicate myself to it and get it done.
I'm really enjoying college, which is such a relief. The teachers are nice and the classes are interesting. One teacher, who I have for two classes, is a pretty boring and repetitive guy, but the textbooks are interesting and the things people say in class tend to make up for the teacher's lack of creativity, so its ok.
Also, lately I've been eating a raw vegan diet. It is amazing! It really cleared my head and gave me a lot of energy. For two weeks, I only ate raw. This morning I decided that I can eat rice too, when I want to because that is what I miss the most (isn't that weird? Of all things, I really, really want rice!) and I figured, whatever rice isn't bad, and it's more calories with less effort. Sometimes I just want to eat one thing and feel full, which is pretty much impossible on the raw diet unless that one thing is like...an entire watermelon or something lol.
I've been reading a lot lately too (and I mean a lot...probably this has a lot to do with my minimal social life) and learning about lots of different things. Actually, right now I am reading Eat Pray Love, which is actually one of my favourite books ever now! I thought it was some stupid self help book or something, but it's about this woman who travels to Italy, India, and Indonesia to learn how to do those three things, and it is amazing! She seems like such a cool person, too, I would love to meet her! :P If you haven't read it, I definitely recommend it. Travellers like us can probably especially appreciate it. :)
The sad new is my grandma is sick right now. She just had a hip replacement, and a heart attack, so she has seen better days. It sounds like she is expected to get better and everyone is very hopeful, so that is good. I just feel really sad for her, because she has had a hard time of it lately. I'm going to visit her this morning and I hope she is feeling...well not too bad. It's hard, or actually impossible, for me to imagine what that must be like. Hopefully she makes as speedy a recovery as she possibly can, and it is worth it in the end.
Oh, well I don't want to end this post on that sad note!
Uhm...lol, what else has happened lately? I planted some beans and they sprouted! :) Hopefully one of these days I get around to building a little greenhouse for them so they don't get frostbite...maybe later today or tomorrow I can to that.
Anyways, I can't wait to read your next post!
Good luck in your new home, I hope everything is working out well there!
Edna
How is life in Corner Brook? I want to hear all about it...I got your text the other day. Sorry I didn't anwer it...I was asleep when it came and then decided to answer by writing a blog post instead! It is so much better than texting.
Did I tell you I have a friend in Halifax from Corner Brook? He loves it, even got (or is getting? Can't remember.) a tatoo syblolic of it on his arm! His name is Kerry Martin, if you ever come across him :P
How are the kids? Are you enjoying teaching them? Is your roommate nice?
That's so exctiting, that you moved there!
Things here are pretty....well, I don't want to say uneventful, but I can say that my lifestyle is very different than what it was in Halifax. I have a very minimal social life...only my friend Greg still lives here of my old friends, and lately he seems to be pursuing me in a way that is innapropriate for our platonic friendship, if you get my drift. I am not interested in being anything other than friends with Greg, so I'm hesitant to call him up too often and give him the wrong idea. When we do hang out, it's fun though.
I have a shitty job at the grocry store that I am thinking I have to replace soon. I am so sick of looking for a job that I have been putting it off for ages already, but I hardly get any hours and it's very boring and well...I know I could do better so I should at least try. If I get a serving job I'll make way more money, and be able to travel right when college gets out instead of having to work for the summer too. Either way, I intend to be travelling again soon.
But I really do need a better job in order to be able to do so. That is the truth of the matter. I've also been thinking about trying to write online for a living. That way I can continue to do so while I travel, which would really be ideal. I need to dedicate myself to it and get it done.
I'm really enjoying college, which is such a relief. The teachers are nice and the classes are interesting. One teacher, who I have for two classes, is a pretty boring and repetitive guy, but the textbooks are interesting and the things people say in class tend to make up for the teacher's lack of creativity, so its ok.
Also, lately I've been eating a raw vegan diet. It is amazing! It really cleared my head and gave me a lot of energy. For two weeks, I only ate raw. This morning I decided that I can eat rice too, when I want to because that is what I miss the most (isn't that weird? Of all things, I really, really want rice!) and I figured, whatever rice isn't bad, and it's more calories with less effort. Sometimes I just want to eat one thing and feel full, which is pretty much impossible on the raw diet unless that one thing is like...an entire watermelon or something lol.
I've been reading a lot lately too (and I mean a lot...probably this has a lot to do with my minimal social life) and learning about lots of different things. Actually, right now I am reading Eat Pray Love, which is actually one of my favourite books ever now! I thought it was some stupid self help book or something, but it's about this woman who travels to Italy, India, and Indonesia to learn how to do those three things, and it is amazing! She seems like such a cool person, too, I would love to meet her! :P If you haven't read it, I definitely recommend it. Travellers like us can probably especially appreciate it. :)
The sad new is my grandma is sick right now. She just had a hip replacement, and a heart attack, so she has seen better days. It sounds like she is expected to get better and everyone is very hopeful, so that is good. I just feel really sad for her, because she has had a hard time of it lately. I'm going to visit her this morning and I hope she is feeling...well not too bad. It's hard, or actually impossible, for me to imagine what that must be like. Hopefully she makes as speedy a recovery as she possibly can, and it is worth it in the end.
Oh, well I don't want to end this post on that sad note!
Uhm...lol, what else has happened lately? I planted some beans and they sprouted! :) Hopefully one of these days I get around to building a little greenhouse for them so they don't get frostbite...maybe later today or tomorrow I can to that.
Anyways, I can't wait to read your next post!
Good luck in your new home, I hope everything is working out well there!
Edna
Aug 20, 2010
Updates from Creekers part 2 and more..
Hi !
I'm really glad you posted again, I thought once you werent interested anymore. Good to hear that things are kinda sorted out for you, and even if it wasn't like you planned, it seems that it will be great for you to take a year to prepare that big trip you always wanted to do :). Anyways, I hope you're having a good time back in your hometown, even tho you find it cliche ^^. I don't think it is, moslty because after all what you did, it's more like normal to be back for a short amount of time to ressource yourself in a way and be ready for new adventures ;). Anyways, I'll always think you're interesting and fun, no matter what you think about yourself !
About those updates, well Victoria and Katie wrote after I posted that last one, so I thought it'll be good for you to read them :
Hey guys!! This was a great idea Marianne! So after the Creek Jaimie and I came back home, graduated and I started first year at the University of Victoria doing sciences. I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do but I thought I'd start there. I've figured out now that I want to do a program to be an Ultrasound Technician so I'm taking this year off to work and save money and I'll be applying to a program in Vancouver for next year! I'm serving at a restaurant right now and starting another job soon at brand new restaurant that should be really sweet when it opens. I'm solo boyfriend-wise too which is actually kind of a nice change haha! Sooo yeah, life is good!! A good summer of friends, working, beaching and turning 19 in 2 weeks (which was last week ^^)! Ahhhh! Have a great rest of your summers! Victoria :)
Hello hello! This was a very good idea Marianne!! After I left Baker Creek I came back home and started babysitting..did that for just over a year..I took a 3 week vacation down to Belize last October and did alot of fun things (snorkeling, ziplining, swam w/sharks! etc)..I am currently working at a convenient store and a lottery booth..also training to be a lifeguard! I'm a busy little bee these days lol umm I'm planning to backpack around Europe next year! And who knows what'll be next after that! I am also boyfriendless..just enjoying life (when I'm not working..) Anywhos...Hope everyone's summer is super fantabulous! Miss you! xoxo
About myself, well the updates are that I quit my job last week, I was really relieved because kinda sick of it, the work itself was getting in my nerve, so were the customers :P. But it was hard also because all my coworkers told me they would miss me and all, like enough to make me feel almost guilty, but I was really touched by their sayings, I found I was lucky to work with them, they were all truly fun and nice people :). I even organize a night out at a restaurant to see them all together for a last time, and we were 20 of us there, which was for me a total success and made me feel so happy. For now, like I text you, I'm in Jonquière, a city 5h away from Montreal, living in my friend's appartment and meeting new people everyday. It's funny how people live here, its kinda like at Kings, but everyone lives in different houses and rooms and they all visit eachother often and text people to see what they're up to and all. It kinda makes me think of a camping site, but in a whole neighborhood ! I came here actually to do something different than staying at home and do nothing really exciting, and because I have to go to Quebec city for the 26-27-28th of August for a short training for my future job. I'm excited about this, because I'll get to know other French language assistants just like me, and maybe we'll stay in touch and write eachother about our own experience or something, which could be great to know. Then I'll have 9 days to prepare my bags and see every people for a real last time, like close friends and relatives. But I'm eager to go, I can't wait to be somewhere else, to find a new home. Its been so long since I left my house for more than few days, beside when I switch between my dad and my mother, its about time that I go on my own again :P. Tho I will be missing them, of course, but its probably better that I leave again, maybe just to then appreciate more the fact that I need them still ^^.
Oh, I have to tell you how I find my roommates, its almost incredible how it happenned. I knew only since mid-July that I was the one who had to find a place to stay, because before that, I thought for some reasons that they would find for me. So I was a little bit nervous about the fact that I had less than 2 months to find myself an appartment in a town of 22 000 people by internet! I started then to post so ad saying that I was looking for a room to rent and all, that I was only staying there for a year so it'll be better if it was furnished and cheap, and close to the place I'll be working at, since I wont have any ways of transportation. So after couple of days waiting, I got a response from a certain Megan Carter who is studying in College in Corner Brook and also looking for a roommate. I was really glad she emailed me, so we started chatting together online and looking together for a place to stay. I got really lucky, because she found a place the day after we talked, and it was perfect! Everything we needed, furnished, big enough, close to her school and my work, really close to a grocery. And since it has 3 bedrooms, we needed to find a third roommate, which she found couple of days later. I can hardly believe how fast it was, luckily she was already in town to look for everything :). So now I don't have to worry anymore about this and I'm ready to move in for September 8th, because I wanted to spend the long week-end with my family and it,s my sisters birthday, I couldn't miss it ^^.
I can't wait to write about my first week there ! Until then, take care, dear Edna :)
-Robi XxxxxX
I'm really glad you posted again, I thought once you werent interested anymore. Good to hear that things are kinda sorted out for you, and even if it wasn't like you planned, it seems that it will be great for you to take a year to prepare that big trip you always wanted to do :). Anyways, I hope you're having a good time back in your hometown, even tho you find it cliche ^^. I don't think it is, moslty because after all what you did, it's more like normal to be back for a short amount of time to ressource yourself in a way and be ready for new adventures ;). Anyways, I'll always think you're interesting and fun, no matter what you think about yourself !
About those updates, well Victoria and Katie wrote after I posted that last one, so I thought it'll be good for you to read them :
Hey guys!! This was a great idea Marianne! So after the Creek Jaimie and I came back home, graduated and I started first year at the University of Victoria doing sciences. I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do but I thought I'd start there. I've figured out now that I want to do a program to be an Ultrasound Technician so I'm taking this year off to work and save money and I'll be applying to a program in Vancouver for next year! I'm serving at a restaurant right now and starting another job soon at brand new restaurant that should be really sweet when it opens. I'm solo boyfriend-wise too which is actually kind of a nice change haha! Sooo yeah, life is good!! A good summer of friends, working, beaching and turning 19 in 2 weeks (which was last week ^^)! Ahhhh! Have a great rest of your summers! Victoria :)
Hello hello! This was a very good idea Marianne!! After I left Baker Creek I came back home and started babysitting..did that for just over a year..I took a 3 week vacation down to Belize last October and did alot of fun things (snorkeling, ziplining, swam w/sharks! etc)..I am currently working at a convenient store and a lottery booth..also training to be a lifeguard! I'm a busy little bee these days lol umm I'm planning to backpack around Europe next year! And who knows what'll be next after that! I am also boyfriendless..just enjoying life (when I'm not working..) Anywhos...Hope everyone's summer is super fantabulous! Miss you! xoxo
About myself, well the updates are that I quit my job last week, I was really relieved because kinda sick of it, the work itself was getting in my nerve, so were the customers :P. But it was hard also because all my coworkers told me they would miss me and all, like enough to make me feel almost guilty, but I was really touched by their sayings, I found I was lucky to work with them, they were all truly fun and nice people :). I even organize a night out at a restaurant to see them all together for a last time, and we were 20 of us there, which was for me a total success and made me feel so happy. For now, like I text you, I'm in Jonquière, a city 5h away from Montreal, living in my friend's appartment and meeting new people everyday. It's funny how people live here, its kinda like at Kings, but everyone lives in different houses and rooms and they all visit eachother often and text people to see what they're up to and all. It kinda makes me think of a camping site, but in a whole neighborhood ! I came here actually to do something different than staying at home and do nothing really exciting, and because I have to go to Quebec city for the 26-27-28th of August for a short training for my future job. I'm excited about this, because I'll get to know other French language assistants just like me, and maybe we'll stay in touch and write eachother about our own experience or something, which could be great to know. Then I'll have 9 days to prepare my bags and see every people for a real last time, like close friends and relatives. But I'm eager to go, I can't wait to be somewhere else, to find a new home. Its been so long since I left my house for more than few days, beside when I switch between my dad and my mother, its about time that I go on my own again :P. Tho I will be missing them, of course, but its probably better that I leave again, maybe just to then appreciate more the fact that I need them still ^^.
Oh, I have to tell you how I find my roommates, its almost incredible how it happenned. I knew only since mid-July that I was the one who had to find a place to stay, because before that, I thought for some reasons that they would find for me. So I was a little bit nervous about the fact that I had less than 2 months to find myself an appartment in a town of 22 000 people by internet! I started then to post so ad saying that I was looking for a room to rent and all, that I was only staying there for a year so it'll be better if it was furnished and cheap, and close to the place I'll be working at, since I wont have any ways of transportation. So after couple of days waiting, I got a response from a certain Megan Carter who is studying in College in Corner Brook and also looking for a roommate. I was really glad she emailed me, so we started chatting together online and looking together for a place to stay. I got really lucky, because she found a place the day after we talked, and it was perfect! Everything we needed, furnished, big enough, close to her school and my work, really close to a grocery. And since it has 3 bedrooms, we needed to find a third roommate, which she found couple of days later. I can hardly believe how fast it was, luckily she was already in town to look for everything :). So now I don't have to worry anymore about this and I'm ready to move in for September 8th, because I wanted to spend the long week-end with my family and it,s my sisters birthday, I couldn't miss it ^^.
I can't wait to write about my first week there ! Until then, take care, dear Edna :)
-Robi XxxxxX
Aug 19, 2010
Omg that was like the best thing I have ever read! :P
That was such an awesome idea, to message everyone and finding out what they are up to. Thank you for posting it! That's awesome, to hear what they are all doing and it sounds like we're all living adventurous lives, which is good to know. It's a real shame so many of them are dating gingers though :P
It makes me miss all those hilarious people! I wonder if we will ever have that reunion?
Also, I can't believe you are moving to Corner Brook! I have a friend in Halifax who is from there, and he LOVES IT!!! Like, absolutely loves it and I'm so happy you are going there...what are the chances?! I wish I could visit you though! Maybe somehow I still can. You must be moving soon...that's so exciting! I wonder what teaching will be like.
Well, I moved back to Courtenay. Basically, I am doing all the things I never thought I would do. I found a place to live in town, but it was pretty weird and I was like, well I don't really want to live here, and there is room for me at my dad's house, so maybe I'll just move in with him, not pay rent, and be one of those lame people who lives with their parents :P
Maybe this is my payback for judging people who stay in Courtenay, live with their parents, and go to community college...because guess what, that is excactly what I am doing. To top off the utter cliche, I'm even working at the grocery store!
Ugh.
But actually, I'm not even upset about it. I'm like, whatever, I can go for this year of college, and in 8 months, I will have an associates degree in arts, which isn't spectacular, but it is something, and I can transfer to university with it and get a bachelors degree in 2 years (petentially a little longer, but not by a lot). It sounds a lot better than just one year towards a 4 year degree, and since I am now living with my dad (altho I just decided to tonight so he doesn't even know yet! Lol!), I can save up and go travelling next summer! Horray!!!
That is all I really want to do anyways, and this way I can do that, and also be a bit responsible and get at least a halfway decent education. I'm mostly taking philosophy and English, which I enjoy. Actually, they have a very limited selection so I am taking philosophy of love and sex, and narratives of love and sex, which actually I am looking forward to. I'm also taking creative writing and solar science and astrolomy (one of two sciences I was eligible for, seeing as I only took sciene until grade 11). So there is the odd class that sounds kinda boring, but overall I think it should be pretty interesting, and I can work along the way and then in May, or June, whenever I have saved up $10 000, which is how much I think I can travel for a year on, I will get myself a ticket outta this town and hopefully become a travel writer in the process!
I have a friend who is going to Sri Lanka in 6 months, it would be kinda cool to go chill with him there in a while. Or I could travel down through the states and into south america, and then go work in Australia once I run out of money...there are SO many options!!!
I intend to be totally broke and totally exhilerated when I get back, and then maybe then I will go back to school or something.
Or maybe I will be like this forever! Who knows. All I know is, I am glad to be doing what I am doing, but I want to travel, and that's what I'm going to be doing again soon.
Anyways, that's an update from this neck of the woods, the god forsaken rock as I so fondly call it :P
Hope all is well with you, can't wait to hear about your move!
Love Edna
It makes me miss all those hilarious people! I wonder if we will ever have that reunion?
Also, I can't believe you are moving to Corner Brook! I have a friend in Halifax who is from there, and he LOVES IT!!! Like, absolutely loves it and I'm so happy you are going there...what are the chances?! I wish I could visit you though! Maybe somehow I still can. You must be moving soon...that's so exciting! I wonder what teaching will be like.
Well, I moved back to Courtenay. Basically, I am doing all the things I never thought I would do. I found a place to live in town, but it was pretty weird and I was like, well I don't really want to live here, and there is room for me at my dad's house, so maybe I'll just move in with him, not pay rent, and be one of those lame people who lives with their parents :P
Maybe this is my payback for judging people who stay in Courtenay, live with their parents, and go to community college...because guess what, that is excactly what I am doing. To top off the utter cliche, I'm even working at the grocery store!
Ugh.
But actually, I'm not even upset about it. I'm like, whatever, I can go for this year of college, and in 8 months, I will have an associates degree in arts, which isn't spectacular, but it is something, and I can transfer to university with it and get a bachelors degree in 2 years (petentially a little longer, but not by a lot). It sounds a lot better than just one year towards a 4 year degree, and since I am now living with my dad (altho I just decided to tonight so he doesn't even know yet! Lol!), I can save up and go travelling next summer! Horray!!!
That is all I really want to do anyways, and this way I can do that, and also be a bit responsible and get at least a halfway decent education. I'm mostly taking philosophy and English, which I enjoy. Actually, they have a very limited selection so I am taking philosophy of love and sex, and narratives of love and sex, which actually I am looking forward to. I'm also taking creative writing and solar science and astrolomy (one of two sciences I was eligible for, seeing as I only took sciene until grade 11). So there is the odd class that sounds kinda boring, but overall I think it should be pretty interesting, and I can work along the way and then in May, or June, whenever I have saved up $10 000, which is how much I think I can travel for a year on, I will get myself a ticket outta this town and hopefully become a travel writer in the process!
I have a friend who is going to Sri Lanka in 6 months, it would be kinda cool to go chill with him there in a while. Or I could travel down through the states and into south america, and then go work in Australia once I run out of money...there are SO many options!!!
I intend to be totally broke and totally exhilerated when I get back, and then maybe then I will go back to school or something.
Or maybe I will be like this forever! Who knows. All I know is, I am glad to be doing what I am doing, but I want to travel, and that's what I'm going to be doing again soon.
Anyways, that's an update from this neck of the woods, the god forsaken rock as I so fondly call it :P
Hope all is well with you, can't wait to hear about your move!
Love Edna
Jul 30, 2010
News from fellas all around the country :D
Hi there!
Hey guess what great thing I did last week? I wrote to all our dear roommates from the Creek, and most of them answered me back :D ! I actually made a common message on facebook, and thought it would be great to share it to you, anti-facebooker ;), because you are actually mentionned once or twice :). And by the same time, you could write something yourself that I could write on the wall, or allow me to write the link to our blog, or whatever you prefer. So here it goes:
Hi everyone!!
I came to realize recently that it's already been 2 years since I was in Baker Creek, and I miss you all SO MUCH!! I thought then I should give you all an update about myself, and meanwhile you can answer back so we can all know what's going on in each other's life :).
So here it goes:
Since I came back from the Western provinces, I finished my college diploma in social studies last May, and I've been working part-time in a bakery as a cashier, still in my hometown. I didn't travel much since 2 years, beside New York city and Halifax last summer, and Florida last winter. But I’m almost done at my job here in Montreal because I’m moving to…… Corner Brook, NL !! Yep, pretty far and strange for a move, but it’s only for a year, since I applied for a job as a French language assistant to work in schools. I’ll be assigned half the year in an elementary school and the second half in a Junior high. I’m really excited about this since I didn’t know what to do in life, and this might be the beginning of something, so I’m more confident now ^^. Meanwhile, I don’t have any boyfriend :P.
But for this summer, I stayed in Montreal, enjoying the festivals (Jazz fest, Just for Laugh, and a whole lot more : ) ). I also got myself a really cool gift for my 20th birthday: skydiving!! It was simply AMAZING!! Btw, I posted some pictures of it ;). And I had the chance to host Edna this last May for a week with a friend of hers, I was really happy to see her. She was actually traveling all across the country hitch inking and stopped by in my hometown, so nice from her : ).
That’s pretty much what’s happening in my life right now, summarized a little bit, but it covers it all. But this was mostly to hear from you all that I wrote all this, so I hope you’ll think about answering me soon ^^. Wish you a great summer to all of you, even though we’re already at the half of it :P.
Love,
Robi
Hey guys! this is such a good idea Robi! i miss everyone so much and think about ya guys all the time!!
So i graduated high school and i took a year off and travelled europe with my friend ashley for three months, it was soo much fun! we went to 14 different countries, including germany, greece, france, ireland and iceland! now i am back home working also at a bakery (called COBS i dont know if you guys know it, its all over Canada) i worked as a sales person but now i am a baker! i am just working for another year and maybe going travelling again. not too sure though!
I also do not have a boyfriend haha, just enjoying the single life! and i just turned 19 so going out a fair bit to clubs!
not too much else happening in my life right now though!
love you guys and miss you!!
Jaimie
Gooooooood morning creekers !
I too often find myself thinking of you guys and wondering what everyone is up too !
After I left Baker Creek, I went to northern BC to take an intensive first aid course that would let me work as a medic in the oil patch, buuuuut after finishing the course, they told me I wasn't old enough yet! Boo! So I went home to NS and worked at ... wait for it...... WALMART ! for a year, on backshirt, just waaitng until the day I could come back out west! So , this past January it happened, I came back out to work as a medic in the field, and as of now, I work for 2 companies and have a well-establishedlove/hate relationship with the oil patch!
I think the best part of it all was, a couple month after moving out, I met a guy on a jobsite , who is now my boyfriend of close to 5 months! yay! His namei is Lee, and he's a toolpush for a service rig. I'm super happy with life right now and I hope everyone else is too!
Miss you all so muchh !!
Magi xo
Robi i cant believe u went sky diving...ur insane haha
I have not been up to a whole lot since Baker Creek, tho thank u guys for the update cuz i also wonder what u all r up to! When i first got back to Kitimat i went back to work at the coffee place i worked at before, i was there for just over a year, working and havin fun with mes amies :) i also have a bf, his name is Brian. (Edna would Not be happy with me...hes pretty gingery hahaha) we have been together since about december, last may he asked me to move to alberta with him, so thats where im at. in Slave Lake, Magi i worked at Walmart too, for about 2 weeks, hahah then i quit cause i hated it and it depressed me...how did u do it for a year? hes workin on the oil rigs, not exactly lovin it, so were working on moving to fort mcmurray alberta cause my brother lives there, who is Brians best friend, my dads there and my best friends live there too so it will be all around muuuuuch better! Slave Lake is really small and lame and boring hahaha i basically spend my day with Brians dog...who is basically mine now...we have a thing haha, Brians at work all day so we explore...well ne who, my life sounds kinda boring i should reallt jazz it up...maybe take some dance lessons hahaha Not
miss u allll! love u lots my fellow creekers :) i shall see u soon!
Va-Nay-Nay :)
Magi wrote then: HAHA Vanaynay.. my man is a ginger too ! Edna would disapprove for sure! lol !
Hey y'all, that's sooo funny that you did this Robi cause i ve been thinking about everyone too. I guess because it's the summer and the creek was the best during the summer.
Anywho, my life is pretty much low key since i moved back. i got home last year and decided that i didn't want to work, lol so i was a camp counserlor for the summer, it was a blast! i had so much fun. so when the summer ended i decided that i shoudl get a real job, so i took alll my piercings out:( got myself an apartment and got a job as housekeeping supervisor at the Holiday Inn here in my hometown. i hate it soo much. there is way to many bitchy old women who work there. so im planning on moving to Halifax in Sept. work for a year then im going to go to school to study boulangerie, im hoping in the future i will open a cafe/ bakery.
i did have a bf but i broke up with him because he was getting way to controlling. and i havent been looking since, maybe ill find my soulmate in halifax, lol yea right....
thats pretty much it, i hope all the best for you guys!! love you and miss you all!
cya
Megs
Hey everyone! good to hear that you all are doing great and are enjoying new and exciting things.
Josh and I moved to Banff, will have been here for a year in October. We've got our own apartment close to downtown. I'm working front desk up on tunnel mountain. I'm really enjoying it! I still go visit Baker Creek every once and a while, and stop to eat at the bistro. No plans on leaving quite yet :)
thinking Vegas in November and a visit home to Ontario after winter season.
Miss you all and hope to see you soon!!
Nicole xoxo
Thats pretty much it for the moment, I'll post more if Katy, Cheryl or Sandra are answering.
I hope youre doing ok, even tho it seems youre having a tough time to sort thing out. But your future plans to move to Vancouver seem great, and I really wish you it'll work out :). You can always text me when you feel like it, I'll do my best to put a smile on your face if you need it ^^.
-Robi XxxxX
Hey guess what great thing I did last week? I wrote to all our dear roommates from the Creek, and most of them answered me back :D ! I actually made a common message on facebook, and thought it would be great to share it to you, anti-facebooker ;), because you are actually mentionned once or twice :). And by the same time, you could write something yourself that I could write on the wall, or allow me to write the link to our blog, or whatever you prefer. So here it goes:
Hi everyone!!
I came to realize recently that it's already been 2 years since I was in Baker Creek, and I miss you all SO MUCH!! I thought then I should give you all an update about myself, and meanwhile you can answer back so we can all know what's going on in each other's life :).
So here it goes:
Since I came back from the Western provinces, I finished my college diploma in social studies last May, and I've been working part-time in a bakery as a cashier, still in my hometown. I didn't travel much since 2 years, beside New York city and Halifax last summer, and Florida last winter. But I’m almost done at my job here in Montreal because I’m moving to…… Corner Brook, NL !! Yep, pretty far and strange for a move, but it’s only for a year, since I applied for a job as a French language assistant to work in schools. I’ll be assigned half the year in an elementary school and the second half in a Junior high. I’m really excited about this since I didn’t know what to do in life, and this might be the beginning of something, so I’m more confident now ^^. Meanwhile, I don’t have any boyfriend :P.
But for this summer, I stayed in Montreal, enjoying the festivals (Jazz fest, Just for Laugh, and a whole lot more : ) ). I also got myself a really cool gift for my 20th birthday: skydiving!! It was simply AMAZING!! Btw, I posted some pictures of it ;). And I had the chance to host Edna this last May for a week with a friend of hers, I was really happy to see her. She was actually traveling all across the country hitch inking and stopped by in my hometown, so nice from her : ).
That’s pretty much what’s happening in my life right now, summarized a little bit, but it covers it all. But this was mostly to hear from you all that I wrote all this, so I hope you’ll think about answering me soon ^^. Wish you a great summer to all of you, even though we’re already at the half of it :P.
Love,
Robi
Hey guys! this is such a good idea Robi! i miss everyone so much and think about ya guys all the time!!
So i graduated high school and i took a year off and travelled europe with my friend ashley for three months, it was soo much fun! we went to 14 different countries, including germany, greece, france, ireland and iceland! now i am back home working also at a bakery (called COBS i dont know if you guys know it, its all over Canada) i worked as a sales person but now i am a baker! i am just working for another year and maybe going travelling again. not too sure though!
I also do not have a boyfriend haha, just enjoying the single life! and i just turned 19 so going out a fair bit to clubs!
not too much else happening in my life right now though!
love you guys and miss you!!
Jaimie
Gooooooood morning creekers !
I too often find myself thinking of you guys and wondering what everyone is up too !
After I left Baker Creek, I went to northern BC to take an intensive first aid course that would let me work as a medic in the oil patch, buuuuut after finishing the course, they told me I wasn't old enough yet! Boo! So I went home to NS and worked at ... wait for it...... WALMART ! for a year, on backshirt, just waaitng until the day I could come back out west! So , this past January it happened, I came back out to work as a medic in the field, and as of now, I work for 2 companies and have a well-establishedlove/hate relationship with the oil patch!
I think the best part of it all was, a couple month after moving out, I met a guy on a jobsite , who is now my boyfriend of close to 5 months! yay! His namei is Lee, and he's a toolpush for a service rig. I'm super happy with life right now and I hope everyone else is too!
Miss you all so muchh !!
Magi xo
Robi i cant believe u went sky diving...ur insane haha
I have not been up to a whole lot since Baker Creek, tho thank u guys for the update cuz i also wonder what u all r up to! When i first got back to Kitimat i went back to work at the coffee place i worked at before, i was there for just over a year, working and havin fun with mes amies :) i also have a bf, his name is Brian. (Edna would Not be happy with me...hes pretty gingery hahaha) we have been together since about december, last may he asked me to move to alberta with him, so thats where im at. in Slave Lake, Magi i worked at Walmart too, for about 2 weeks, hahah then i quit cause i hated it and it depressed me...how did u do it for a year? hes workin on the oil rigs, not exactly lovin it, so were working on moving to fort mcmurray alberta cause my brother lives there, who is Brians best friend, my dads there and my best friends live there too so it will be all around muuuuuch better! Slave Lake is really small and lame and boring hahaha i basically spend my day with Brians dog...who is basically mine now...we have a thing haha, Brians at work all day so we explore...well ne who, my life sounds kinda boring i should reallt jazz it up...maybe take some dance lessons hahaha Not
miss u allll! love u lots my fellow creekers :) i shall see u soon!
Va-Nay-Nay :)
Magi wrote then: HAHA Vanaynay.. my man is a ginger too ! Edna would disapprove for sure! lol !
Hey y'all, that's sooo funny that you did this Robi cause i ve been thinking about everyone too. I guess because it's the summer and the creek was the best during the summer.
Anywho, my life is pretty much low key since i moved back. i got home last year and decided that i didn't want to work, lol so i was a camp counserlor for the summer, it was a blast! i had so much fun. so when the summer ended i decided that i shoudl get a real job, so i took alll my piercings out:( got myself an apartment and got a job as housekeeping supervisor at the Holiday Inn here in my hometown. i hate it soo much. there is way to many bitchy old women who work there. so im planning on moving to Halifax in Sept. work for a year then im going to go to school to study boulangerie, im hoping in the future i will open a cafe/ bakery.
i did have a bf but i broke up with him because he was getting way to controlling. and i havent been looking since, maybe ill find my soulmate in halifax, lol yea right....
thats pretty much it, i hope all the best for you guys!! love you and miss you all!
cya
Megs
Hey everyone! good to hear that you all are doing great and are enjoying new and exciting things.
Josh and I moved to Banff, will have been here for a year in October. We've got our own apartment close to downtown. I'm working front desk up on tunnel mountain. I'm really enjoying it! I still go visit Baker Creek every once and a while, and stop to eat at the bistro. No plans on leaving quite yet :)
thinking Vegas in November and a visit home to Ontario after winter season.
Miss you all and hope to see you soon!!
Nicole xoxo
Thats pretty much it for the moment, I'll post more if Katy, Cheryl or Sandra are answering.
I hope youre doing ok, even tho it seems youre having a tough time to sort thing out. But your future plans to move to Vancouver seem great, and I really wish you it'll work out :). You can always text me when you feel like it, I'll do my best to put a smile on your face if you need it ^^.
-Robi XxxxX
Jul 19, 2010
Robi in the air !
I DID IT!! I can't hardly believe it, but it's done! And it was worth it, so much! Yep, I did jump out of a plane, 13 500 feet above the ground, and it was AWESOME ! And I need to write it done now before I get tired of repeating the same thing, because only since yesterday, I might have tell my experience about 5 times ^^. The thing is, I was nervous and anxious the whole ride before getting to the place, but once I filled out the papers and got my jumpsuit on, waiting for my turn to come, I was simply excited to go, and almost impatient ! It was like my brain couldn't think about the fear, the risk and all the bad feelings that could occur. I actually didn't want to think about those things, but just the rush that it will bring to me, and the experience itself ^^. Once we got on the plane, we had to fly for about 15 minutes up in the air to reach the right altitude, like I said, 13 500 feet, or 4000 meters ! Then, attached to my instructor, Martin the world champion ;), we standed by the door, the sky in front of us. The feeling was all there then: I was going to fall into the sky. But I need first to picture you what the sky looked like at this moment. Because it was a cloudy day, we flew above the coulds and were now surrounded by blue sky, with a white and soft floor under our feet. Just this picture, right before jumping, was worth it. Then came the fall, and the one worst second of my life! Ahahah, well it wasn't that bad, but the feeling I had at the very moment my feet left the plane was kinda awful. Imagine yourself on top of a rollercoaster ride, right in the first fall. Well I got this feeling multiplied by.... I'll say a hundred ! Because you don't see the end of this fall, and because your not attached to any rail, and because the air is so cold, your lungs get all cold too and you have a hard time breathing, with the wind going 200km/h in your mouth and nose. But the first second passed, you acknowledge this feeling and it just feel like flying. I could now really enjoy the fall and breathe normally, which is kind of a relief ^^. We then went throught the clouds and just when we could see the ground under, Martin opened the parachute. I don't remember being shaken at that moment, all I was thinking was "already?" :P. The view up there was incredible, we could see so far all around us. He then passed me the handles of the parachute and ask me to "drive" it. Couple of turns left and right, some breaking, and even some spins, it was fun ! And then, too fast again, he took the handles, getting ready to land. The landing was smooth, he touched the ground first, I just slipped on my feet and I lay there, still amazed by the whole trip. My heart was pounding, my legs shaking, but I surely had a huge smile and my eyes were wet because of the wind.
I could never forget the experience I had, but I might forget the feeling I had during the whole fall. I really hope I'll get to do it again so it was so great. And I really wish you to try it, or though to experience something that will bring such emotions. I didn't to this to prove anyone anything, I just wanted to try something different, not as common as other attractions, but I surely did it for myself, for my own pleasure ^^. And I was damm right about it: I had the fun of my life !!
I could never forget the experience I had, but I might forget the feeling I had during the whole fall. I really hope I'll get to do it again so it was so great. And I really wish you to try it, or though to experience something that will bring such emotions. I didn't to this to prove anyone anything, I just wanted to try something different, not as common as other attractions, but I surely did it for myself, for my own pleasure ^^. And I was damm right about it: I had the fun of my life !!
Jul 18, 2010
My....one-fifth-of-the-way-through-life crisis
Where do I even start?
Well, since I saw you, many things have changed. The first one being: Matt and I are no longer "together", or even really friends. He decided that he doesn't want me anymore, and is acting like a reall baby about it. He can't make up his mind one way or the other, and about once a week (after ignoring me entirely the rest of the week) he'll call up and want to do something, it will be fun, and then at the end we'll have this long, repetitive talk about what we did wrong and me saying I'd like to be with him, but only if he pursues me and makes me feel wanted, then him saying he loves me but he hates me and he doesn't want a relationship but he wonders if we would be together forever and he doesn't believe in monogomous relationships but he wants to find someone who he wants to marry and blah blah blah the contradictions just go on and on it's just rediculous!
So that's one thing.
Also, I STILL haven't found a job! I`ve been looking for an entire months, and I`ve applied for over a hundred jobs, but it is just impossible to find a job here! It`s just crazy!!! I`ve been filling in some shifts at my old job, and I did get a job at Tim Hortons, but I wore a bracelet to work and they FIRED me!
I have never hated my life so much! I have hardly any friends, I am almost broke and I`ve got rent to pay, I`ve been rejected for jobs every day for the past month, I`ve been rejected by Matt, i`m super bored and don`t have any money to do anything, and then to top it off I got fired from Tim Hortons! Yup, this is a new low.
Worse yet, I had already done 30 hours of really awful boring training and now I don`t even get paid for it. I want to bash those asshole`s heads in.
But instead, I have decided to take a more productive approach and change my life. Clearly what I am doing now isn`t working. There are no jobs, and even if there were, I`m realizing that it would only be temporary, and without any education I will just end up in this situation again. And I really can`t wait any longer because I`m nearly broke and I really don`t want to have to borrow money from my family.
So...the new plan is this: I`m going to move to Vancouver and take a one year diploma in holistic nutrition, and then either get a job at a healt club or something or set up my own practice as a nutritionist. I could also get a one-year certificate at the community college in courtenay as I do that (somehow), and become registered as a life coach too, because I think the two go together well. Then I can hopefully actually make some significant money, and after a few years travel again, then come back and get a real d bachelors degree as a dietician, and then go work for an aid organization overseas.
I don`t want to preach western ideology overseas, but I would like to help people in some way, and malnutrition is literally everywhere-rich countries, poor countries..and it addresses people`s needs on a truly human level. I really like that.
Anyways, I`ll write a more detailed post soon. My eyes are really tired and all this is still in the planning process (as of last night when I came up with the idea lol) and I`m excited about it and finally I feel like I have some direction again! Horray!
Anyways, I`m stoked to hear about your skydiving experiences!!! Omg, I bet that was a rush!
I want to hear everything about it, and about your summer! :)
Love Edna
Well, since I saw you, many things have changed. The first one being: Matt and I are no longer "together", or even really friends. He decided that he doesn't want me anymore, and is acting like a reall baby about it. He can't make up his mind one way or the other, and about once a week (after ignoring me entirely the rest of the week) he'll call up and want to do something, it will be fun, and then at the end we'll have this long, repetitive talk about what we did wrong and me saying I'd like to be with him, but only if he pursues me and makes me feel wanted, then him saying he loves me but he hates me and he doesn't want a relationship but he wonders if we would be together forever and he doesn't believe in monogomous relationships but he wants to find someone who he wants to marry and blah blah blah the contradictions just go on and on it's just rediculous!
So that's one thing.
Also, I STILL haven't found a job! I`ve been looking for an entire months, and I`ve applied for over a hundred jobs, but it is just impossible to find a job here! It`s just crazy!!! I`ve been filling in some shifts at my old job, and I did get a job at Tim Hortons, but I wore a bracelet to work and they FIRED me!
I have never hated my life so much! I have hardly any friends, I am almost broke and I`ve got rent to pay, I`ve been rejected for jobs every day for the past month, I`ve been rejected by Matt, i`m super bored and don`t have any money to do anything, and then to top it off I got fired from Tim Hortons! Yup, this is a new low.
Worse yet, I had already done 30 hours of really awful boring training and now I don`t even get paid for it. I want to bash those asshole`s heads in.
But instead, I have decided to take a more productive approach and change my life. Clearly what I am doing now isn`t working. There are no jobs, and even if there were, I`m realizing that it would only be temporary, and without any education I will just end up in this situation again. And I really can`t wait any longer because I`m nearly broke and I really don`t want to have to borrow money from my family.
So...the new plan is this: I`m going to move to Vancouver and take a one year diploma in holistic nutrition, and then either get a job at a healt club or something or set up my own practice as a nutritionist. I could also get a one-year certificate at the community college in courtenay as I do that (somehow), and become registered as a life coach too, because I think the two go together well. Then I can hopefully actually make some significant money, and after a few years travel again, then come back and get a real d bachelors degree as a dietician, and then go work for an aid organization overseas.
I don`t want to preach western ideology overseas, but I would like to help people in some way, and malnutrition is literally everywhere-rich countries, poor countries..and it addresses people`s needs on a truly human level. I really like that.
Anyways, I`ll write a more detailed post soon. My eyes are really tired and all this is still in the planning process (as of last night when I came up with the idea lol) and I`m excited about it and finally I feel like I have some direction again! Horray!
Anyways, I`m stoked to hear about your skydiving experiences!!! Omg, I bet that was a rush!
I want to hear everything about it, and about your summer! :)
Love Edna
Jun 21, 2010
Did I really need a specific reason to write about? :P
Just when I received your text with your new number, I aknowledge the fact that Im a bad blogger :P. Not because I havent write in so long, but because I didnt went past the essence of blogging. Blogging shouldnt be a task, neither something due. It shouldnt need a reason to be, or at least not a specific one, and in our case, it doesnt have to be interesting to everyone, since just us two read it ;). So there, I will no longer wait so long to post something, or think about something to post, since it can be made spontaneously. That is something I really need to work on :P, spontanity. It seems that everything I do is all planned and organized. But how do I learn to be spontanious? Less rational? Maybe I need to hang out with my sister more... ;)
Anyhow, I do have things to write about, on this nice day of June, where its sunny and warm outside, and I am sitting on my bed, eyes glueded on my computer screen :P.
So first I wanted to write about the great visit I had from dear fella Edna, last month. Tho it was quick and I was working the whole time, I was really happy to see her again. And I'm still so glad we kept in touch since, now what seems years, we met :). The thing is, every time we meet again, we can act like we never stopped seeing each other, the conversations are still fun and at ease. Tho we do grow up and experiment life differently. I just hope this blog will still exist in years from now, so will be our friendship :).
Then I thought about that post I did last summer, where I complain how last year was boring and everything, and I decided this one wont be as unexciting as the last one ^^. And I can already say that so far, it hasn't been so unexciting :D. Tho I'm not fully busy and going out every night, I do go out often, and enjoy what Montreal offers best: festivals !! So far, I must have seen at least 8 shows, most of them free and outside, in 3 weeks, and they were all awesome ! First there was the Francofolies, a festival that promote french speaking music, my favourite ^^, then Quebec day with this huge show happening in a park with lots of different groups and artists, then the International Jazz Fest of Montreal, which is still going on until July 6. Will come after the Just For Laugh festival, again with free outside shows, can't wait !
But beside what as already been done, I thought I'd make a list of things I must do during this summer of 2010, just to make it awesome ! Here it goes:
-Skydiving!! You already know about this one since I told you about when you were here. I haven't done it yet, but the date is choosen: July 18 !! I simply can't wait to this day, I know it's gonna be quite an experience. And what a great way to celebrate my 20th summer! I promise to write about this as soon as I come back from it, when it'll still be fresh in my memory :).
-A lot less exciting but as remarquable: eye surgery! Yep, no more glasses for me soon! Another dream come true, I wanted this since I knew it existed. Tho its gonna cost me all my hard-work from the last year at the bakery, I know it'll be worth it ^^.
-A day-trip to Quebec city! I know I told you how great and beautiful is that city, but I came to realize that I haven't been there since I was.... 14 ! And since my mother has to go often there for her job, I thought I could take her ride and spend the day in the capital and enjoy the Old town :)
-Camping! Something I used to do every summer with the family but lost the habit with the years going by. I can even say that the last time I set up a tent was at my graduation party (in 2007, ugh -_-' ), and I didn't even use it :P, so I don't think that even counts!
-Tam-tams!! I had the chance to go twice since the beginning of the summer, but eh, you never go too often there, its so pleasant and fun :). Perhaps I need to practice my djembe skills to fit in the jam ;).
-Pik-nik electronic! A celebration that also happen every Sunday, tho I never experiment. You could compare this event as a huge outside rave party that happen during the afternoon till dawn, seems pretty exciting ^^.
-Drive in! Something I wanted to do since last summer, and that I haven't been to since I was, I'm not sure..... maybe 13 ? I think it's just a fun way to appreciate the warm summer nights and still be updated about the cinematography industry ^^. Tho I planned to go with friends, not like those clichés where you spend the movie not looking at it, busy doing other things... bahahah!
-.... and probalby more! Ahah, anyways, I intend to make this summer great, so will it be ^^.
About my work next year, I just received the confirmation where I'll be working: Western Newfoundland! So, pretty far from St. Johns ^^. It'll be exciting to live in a far town, with no crowds, no metro or big happenings... I just hope the people there know how to have fun :). And now I'm starting to realize that I'll be actually living there, for 9 months, and that I will be working as a "wannabe teacher".. Am I sure of what I'm doing? Will I be able to do my job? I'm sure starting to question myself seriously, but I know that's what I wanted to do for the next year. I'm just getting a bit anxious with all this, which may be normal... I think :P.
Anyways, it'll sure be an experience I'll remember, and it will probably help me to choose a course for the future. But until this, I must enjoy as much as possible the time I have here with the people I know and appreciate :). Because even tho I know I wont be living my whole life close to my family, I know I builded solid friendship this last year and they might fragilize with me going away. I just hope I'll be able to stay in touch as I did with you :D.
Speaking of staying in touch, hope to hear from you soon, or read from you ^^.
Take care, and wish you an awesome summer also, tho I know it already started great with your trip accross the country. Say Hi to Matt, and tell him I'm sorry, I haven't find him on Facebook, there's so many guys with the same name, how weird? Ahah, anyways, I'll end this post here, its getting pretty long actually :P.
Love,
Robi XxxxX
Anyhow, I do have things to write about, on this nice day of June, where its sunny and warm outside, and I am sitting on my bed, eyes glueded on my computer screen :P.
So first I wanted to write about the great visit I had from dear fella Edna, last month. Tho it was quick and I was working the whole time, I was really happy to see her again. And I'm still so glad we kept in touch since, now what seems years, we met :). The thing is, every time we meet again, we can act like we never stopped seeing each other, the conversations are still fun and at ease. Tho we do grow up and experiment life differently. I just hope this blog will still exist in years from now, so will be our friendship :).
Then I thought about that post I did last summer, where I complain how last year was boring and everything, and I decided this one wont be as unexciting as the last one ^^. And I can already say that so far, it hasn't been so unexciting :D. Tho I'm not fully busy and going out every night, I do go out often, and enjoy what Montreal offers best: festivals !! So far, I must have seen at least 8 shows, most of them free and outside, in 3 weeks, and they were all awesome ! First there was the Francofolies, a festival that promote french speaking music, my favourite ^^, then Quebec day with this huge show happening in a park with lots of different groups and artists, then the International Jazz Fest of Montreal, which is still going on until July 6. Will come after the Just For Laugh festival, again with free outside shows, can't wait !
But beside what as already been done, I thought I'd make a list of things I must do during this summer of 2010, just to make it awesome ! Here it goes:
-Skydiving!! You already know about this one since I told you about when you were here. I haven't done it yet, but the date is choosen: July 18 !! I simply can't wait to this day, I know it's gonna be quite an experience. And what a great way to celebrate my 20th summer! I promise to write about this as soon as I come back from it, when it'll still be fresh in my memory :).
-A lot less exciting but as remarquable: eye surgery! Yep, no more glasses for me soon! Another dream come true, I wanted this since I knew it existed. Tho its gonna cost me all my hard-work from the last year at the bakery, I know it'll be worth it ^^.
-A day-trip to Quebec city! I know I told you how great and beautiful is that city, but I came to realize that I haven't been there since I was.... 14 ! And since my mother has to go often there for her job, I thought I could take her ride and spend the day in the capital and enjoy the Old town :)
-Camping! Something I used to do every summer with the family but lost the habit with the years going by. I can even say that the last time I set up a tent was at my graduation party (in 2007, ugh -_-' ), and I didn't even use it :P, so I don't think that even counts!
-Tam-tams!! I had the chance to go twice since the beginning of the summer, but eh, you never go too often there, its so pleasant and fun :). Perhaps I need to practice my djembe skills to fit in the jam ;).
-Pik-nik electronic! A celebration that also happen every Sunday, tho I never experiment. You could compare this event as a huge outside rave party that happen during the afternoon till dawn, seems pretty exciting ^^.
-Drive in! Something I wanted to do since last summer, and that I haven't been to since I was, I'm not sure..... maybe 13 ? I think it's just a fun way to appreciate the warm summer nights and still be updated about the cinematography industry ^^. Tho I planned to go with friends, not like those clichés where you spend the movie not looking at it, busy doing other things... bahahah!
-.... and probalby more! Ahah, anyways, I intend to make this summer great, so will it be ^^.
About my work next year, I just received the confirmation where I'll be working: Western Newfoundland! So, pretty far from St. Johns ^^. It'll be exciting to live in a far town, with no crowds, no metro or big happenings... I just hope the people there know how to have fun :). And now I'm starting to realize that I'll be actually living there, for 9 months, and that I will be working as a "wannabe teacher".. Am I sure of what I'm doing? Will I be able to do my job? I'm sure starting to question myself seriously, but I know that's what I wanted to do for the next year. I'm just getting a bit anxious with all this, which may be normal... I think :P.
Anyways, it'll sure be an experience I'll remember, and it will probably help me to choose a course for the future. But until this, I must enjoy as much as possible the time I have here with the people I know and appreciate :). Because even tho I know I wont be living my whole life close to my family, I know I builded solid friendship this last year and they might fragilize with me going away. I just hope I'll be able to stay in touch as I did with you :D.
Speaking of staying in touch, hope to hear from you soon, or read from you ^^.
Take care, and wish you an awesome summer also, tho I know it already started great with your trip accross the country. Say Hi to Matt, and tell him I'm sorry, I haven't find him on Facebook, there's so many guys with the same name, how weird? Ahah, anyways, I'll end this post here, its getting pretty long actually :P.
Love,
Robi XxxxX
May 31, 2010
The last day of May !
Wow, I havent post in so long, what a bad blogger am I ! The worst is that I have no clue what I should be writting about :P. So I'll just leave it like this and come back on it whenever I'll know what to write about. Bleh, that is so lame !
Apr 14, 2010
Sorry for not posting for so long! I have had this open on my computer ever since last time we talked, and have thought about it every day but somehow, I haven't written until now!
I need to start being more communicative! A lot has been happening lately, which I know isn't a good reason not to write a blog post because really, it doesn't take THAT long, but I have felt like I had a lot less down time lately. I think it's since I started working again, it always seems to be what eats up free time. But now, school is over, just one more essay and one more exam!
In response to your last post: one, I am very happy that you would want to travel with me! I think that would be a good time, altho probably for you know, not a super long trip because I know myself I would get irritable, but definitely for some time. I'm not going to school next year, so it's possible that if I get a better job and save some money, and you had the time available, we could go during next year? Or even next summer...my lease ends in May!
For this summer...have I told you about my psych lab partner? Well, he hasn't been my lab partner for a while now, but that's how we met. We've been hanging out since February, and I told him that I wanted to hitch across Canada this summer, and he has said all along that he wants to come with me...and now I actually believe him. That's another reason why it took me so long to respond, because I had been talking about that with him but not actually knowing if he meant it, and I didn't want to make plans with both of you and then have to choose between them. I want to travel with both of you, it was just that I had talked to Matt about it first and I didn't want to ditch the plans I made with him. We will for sure visit you though...haha, and he wants to practice his French this summer so I bet you would both like that. I am prepared to be quite left out of the conversation...lol.
Anyways, I feel like that is all stuff that will fall into place when the time comes, and we will for sure discuss it again.
Did you know that I went to Courtenay for 5 days over Easter? There was a family reunion there, and I was like, fuck it, I'm going! I had wanted to go back for a long time, and my whole family was there...it was a really nice time. I was so glad to see my family again! I only have one friend who still lives there (which I realize is slightly pathetic lol), and it was really good to see him too.
Anyways, I have so many more stories for you, but I am also so tired of typing! Lol.
Good luck on all your exams etc!
Love Edna
I need to start being more communicative! A lot has been happening lately, which I know isn't a good reason not to write a blog post because really, it doesn't take THAT long, but I have felt like I had a lot less down time lately. I think it's since I started working again, it always seems to be what eats up free time. But now, school is over, just one more essay and one more exam!
In response to your last post: one, I am very happy that you would want to travel with me! I think that would be a good time, altho probably for you know, not a super long trip because I know myself I would get irritable, but definitely for some time. I'm not going to school next year, so it's possible that if I get a better job and save some money, and you had the time available, we could go during next year? Or even next summer...my lease ends in May!
For this summer...have I told you about my psych lab partner? Well, he hasn't been my lab partner for a while now, but that's how we met. We've been hanging out since February, and I told him that I wanted to hitch across Canada this summer, and he has said all along that he wants to come with me...and now I actually believe him. That's another reason why it took me so long to respond, because I had been talking about that with him but not actually knowing if he meant it, and I didn't want to make plans with both of you and then have to choose between them. I want to travel with both of you, it was just that I had talked to Matt about it first and I didn't want to ditch the plans I made with him. We will for sure visit you though...haha, and he wants to practice his French this summer so I bet you would both like that. I am prepared to be quite left out of the conversation...lol.
Anyways, I feel like that is all stuff that will fall into place when the time comes, and we will for sure discuss it again.
Did you know that I went to Courtenay for 5 days over Easter? There was a family reunion there, and I was like, fuck it, I'm going! I had wanted to go back for a long time, and my whole family was there...it was a really nice time. I was so glad to see my family again! I only have one friend who still lives there (which I realize is slightly pathetic lol), and it was really good to see him too.
Anyways, I have so many more stories for you, but I am also so tired of typing! Lol.
Good luck on all your exams etc!
Love Edna
Mar 15, 2010
Thoughts about the following year...
Finally I'm on spring break :D ! I've been waiting for this week to come since.... oh well since the beginning of the semester, bleh :P. Not that I don't like school that much..... well maybe... but mostly because I've been actually so busy because of school. Seriously, ending college it's hard, comparing to all the other semesters I finished. I only have 6 courses but theyre so full of projects and work that it seems I have like 10! But at least most of them are interesting :). Tho hard :P. But anyways, just wanted to express my relieving to be off for the week, and not have to work that much at the bakery, yay ! And right now, I'm trying to not think of all the homeworks I'm suppose to be doing for next week, re-bleh :P, ahahahah. Instead I'm thinking mostly about what I'm going to do after college.... and that's starting to be closer and closer as the weeks go by. And I do have some ideas, but it's hard to plan when you're on "maybes". What I mean by maybes is that I might do that thing I told you about, where I'll be working somewhere in Canada and help teaching french to anglophones. Because I sent my application form, and I have and interview next week :D ! Thats like the first step to be accepted, and I'm really excited, and really hope I'll make it ! And since it's starting only in September, I thought I could be traveling for a few weeks this summer, before heading to wherever place they'll send me. And then that question hit me again, where will I go :S ? I already thought about Europe, I'm actually thinking about it since I'm 16, but then I heard about South-East Asia and South America.... All these destinations seems great ! The only thing is that I don't feel comfortable to travel there on my own..... Even tho I know it's easier to meet people and to find places to stay at, I'm not sure if I could do it....
And then I was wondering, even tho you apply for next year at King's, would you still want to do that trip you dreamed about, only in a shorter amount of time? And do you think you could stand traveling with..... me? Because I know I might not be the same kind of traveler you are, but actually, I'm not any kind of traveler in particuliar, since I only travelled with my parents, and that only trip I did on the West Coast, with all those touristic places and nothing really exotic :P. And the way you posted you're adventures on your last blog, I found it really interesting, as you read it :). So I thought maybe you wanted to consider this, or you might just not want to do this, for any reasons. Any response will be a good one, as long as it yours. This seems like a big speech, and I wished I could have talk to you about it on msn, but we were both quite busy lately. And on the other hand, this way you have more time to think about it.
So that's pretty much all about it. We both are passionate about trips and places, maybe we could share an experience like this :).
Anyways, there's not that much else happening on my side...Hope to hear from you soon, about any story or things going on in your life ! :)
Robi XxxxX
And then I was wondering, even tho you apply for next year at King's, would you still want to do that trip you dreamed about, only in a shorter amount of time? And do you think you could stand traveling with..... me? Because I know I might not be the same kind of traveler you are, but actually, I'm not any kind of traveler in particuliar, since I only travelled with my parents, and that only trip I did on the West Coast, with all those touristic places and nothing really exotic :P. And the way you posted you're adventures on your last blog, I found it really interesting, as you read it :). So I thought maybe you wanted to consider this, or you might just not want to do this, for any reasons. Any response will be a good one, as long as it yours. This seems like a big speech, and I wished I could have talk to you about it on msn, but we were both quite busy lately. And on the other hand, this way you have more time to think about it.
So that's pretty much all about it. We both are passionate about trips and places, maybe we could share an experience like this :).
Anyways, there's not that much else happening on my side...Hope to hear from you soon, about any story or things going on in your life ! :)
Robi XxxxX
Feb 20, 2010
February
Awh, dammit! I had a really witty response post to your Valentines post all written out, and my computer mysteriously restarted! Why!?? Anyways, I appreciate that post for sure. Our cafeteria had all these hearts and really aweful cheesy decorations up for the whole first half of February...God it was depressing :P Especially since my ex also goes to that caf :S
Anyways, wrote an essay on V-day. Maybe that actually means I'm taking my life in the right direction.
Anyways, my friends are being SO lame tonight. 2nd night of spring break, and they're writing the essays they took lates on last week. Assholes! I am pretty high and just all day I have had so much energy, and THEY WON"T DO ANYTHING WITH ME!!! It's pathetic!
Oh well. Whatever.
I will corrupt them soon >)
Hmm, what to write about?
I have been working a bunch lately, which is good. My boss is pretty nutty, but she's kinda cool and the customers are really awesome. So it's a good job...plus, I am just SO grateful to have gotten a job. I thought I was going to go this whole year without finding one!
Also, I've been enjoying my school lately...like, the philosophers we have been studying lately are so much more applicable to our lives in this time. And their thoughts have been so amazing. We even did Karl Marx! He was such a persuasive writer...after 5 pages I was a communist! :p
Hmm, what else?
I have a sexy lab partner! Thank God for my one lonely science credit! Oh boy, is he ever. Seems really cool (in all our three minutes of conversation). But yah, we ended up being partners and are meeting for lunch and to "discuss our project" Fuck it, I've already failed one semester of tutorial, let's not pretend I would go to all these efforts without ulterior motives in mind. Except that they are superior motives. Spending time with somebody I actually think is cool and am interested in (not just his looks were appealing) is much higher on my list than making a slideshow about a psychological disorder. Call me crazy!
Anyways, hopefully that does well.
Uhmm, what else? Well, its Spring Break! Awesome, hopefully I leave Halifax at some time...
Maybe I'll hop a train tomorrow. I have three days off, why not?
:) Peace!
Edna
Anyways, wrote an essay on V-day. Maybe that actually means I'm taking my life in the right direction.
Anyways, my friends are being SO lame tonight. 2nd night of spring break, and they're writing the essays they took lates on last week. Assholes! I am pretty high and just all day I have had so much energy, and THEY WON"T DO ANYTHING WITH ME!!! It's pathetic!
Oh well. Whatever.
I will corrupt them soon >)
Hmm, what to write about?
I have been working a bunch lately, which is good. My boss is pretty nutty, but she's kinda cool and the customers are really awesome. So it's a good job...plus, I am just SO grateful to have gotten a job. I thought I was going to go this whole year without finding one!
Also, I've been enjoying my school lately...like, the philosophers we have been studying lately are so much more applicable to our lives in this time. And their thoughts have been so amazing. We even did Karl Marx! He was such a persuasive writer...after 5 pages I was a communist! :p
Hmm, what else?
I have a sexy lab partner! Thank God for my one lonely science credit! Oh boy, is he ever. Seems really cool (in all our three minutes of conversation). But yah, we ended up being partners and are meeting for lunch and to "discuss our project" Fuck it, I've already failed one semester of tutorial, let's not pretend I would go to all these efforts without ulterior motives in mind. Except that they are superior motives. Spending time with somebody I actually think is cool and am interested in (not just his looks were appealing) is much higher on my list than making a slideshow about a psychological disorder. Call me crazy!
Anyways, hopefully that does well.
Uhmm, what else? Well, its Spring Break! Awesome, hopefully I leave Halifax at some time...
Maybe I'll hop a train tomorrow. I have three days off, why not?
:) Peace!
Edna
Feb 11, 2010
Valentine crap :P
What a day I had today. A hell of a day, should I say. It was pretty bad, for the self-esteem mostly :P. Ok I'll write about it because it would be really mean to start writing about this and then leave it unexplain, and because it will probably feel better after, and because I might find a way to laugh about it!
So here IT is: as you have realize, it's almost Valentine's day. Hooray...... NAWT :P ahahah. And from all I could remember, I never had any date or any kind of valentine mate on this day. And usually, on other years, it wouldn't bother me that much, it would be like "meh, watever...." But this year, I can't figure out exactly why, but it does bother me, to be surrounded by happy couples cheering for Valentine's day and all the cheezy things going on about it. Ugh, kill me now :P. And the worst it's that I work in a fancy bakery/pastry shop. Hell on earth should I say. Loll, well it's not that bad, but every shift I do I'm surrounded by red or pink flowers and chocolates and heart-shaped things, everything to not make me forget that IT is coming. I know I shouldn't be upset about it, after all, I'm certainly not the last single person on earth. But it's not being single that bothers me. It's being reminded that I am. You know, like every time someone you haven't seen in a while ends up asking you : "so is there anyone in your life right now?" or "how's your love life?". Or when your boss walks up to you and ask you very seriously "So, who's your valentine mate *Robi ?" and when I answer "no one", the only thing she could manage to answer back is " Oh that's sad, you shouldn't be alone on Valentine's day". I swear, that really happen, today actually. Ok, maybe she didn't mean no arm, because she's kinda nice usually, but that was just..... bad! And it happen just before I dropped a dozen of fancy valentine decorated cookies I had just wrapped. And they were all ruined. Every single one of them couldn't be sale anymore. Is that what we call Karma? Anyways, it felt awful, for my self-esteem mostly, but also because the pastry chef didn't even scream at me, she was so mad she couldn't say anything.... :S. An horrible day, like I said. At least my other coworkers found the way to cheer me up, so it didn't end up too badly. That's one thing I'm greatful for, working with a lot of great persons, we all get along pretty well and it's nice to work altogether :).
But yeah, about valentine stuff and all, it sucks on my side, I'm not gonna lie, loll :P. And I really wonder what is with people who ask those question and are actually sad for me when I answer negatively. I get it, it is weird that at my age, I've never been in a relationship, but still, is it that important to be in love, or just be in couple. I mean, I know it's important to feel love and all, but why should they feel concern about it, it's none of their business! Boy, this is starting to look like an editorial or something, it might look like I'm one frustrated single girl ! Or maybe I am after all.... loll ! Anyways, I can't wait for all this to be part of the past, and not look forward for the same shit next year.
Until then, I wish you will have a happy valentine's day, whatever you will be doing :).
-Robi XxxxX
=>by the way, do you know the singer Damien Rice? If not, you should check out his songs, mostly the ones from his album "O", its AMAZINGLY beautiful ! I totally feel in love with his melodies, loll ! Yeah, that's the thing with me, I don't fall in love with people, only with music and landscapes, bhahahah.
So here IT is: as you have realize, it's almost Valentine's day. Hooray...... NAWT :P ahahah. And from all I could remember, I never had any date or any kind of valentine mate on this day. And usually, on other years, it wouldn't bother me that much, it would be like "meh, watever...." But this year, I can't figure out exactly why, but it does bother me, to be surrounded by happy couples cheering for Valentine's day and all the cheezy things going on about it. Ugh, kill me now :P. And the worst it's that I work in a fancy bakery/pastry shop. Hell on earth should I say. Loll, well it's not that bad, but every shift I do I'm surrounded by red or pink flowers and chocolates and heart-shaped things, everything to not make me forget that IT is coming. I know I shouldn't be upset about it, after all, I'm certainly not the last single person on earth. But it's not being single that bothers me. It's being reminded that I am. You know, like every time someone you haven't seen in a while ends up asking you : "so is there anyone in your life right now?" or "how's your love life?". Or when your boss walks up to you and ask you very seriously "So, who's your valentine mate *Robi ?" and when I answer "no one", the only thing she could manage to answer back is " Oh that's sad, you shouldn't be alone on Valentine's day". I swear, that really happen, today actually. Ok, maybe she didn't mean no arm, because she's kinda nice usually, but that was just..... bad! And it happen just before I dropped a dozen of fancy valentine decorated cookies I had just wrapped. And they were all ruined. Every single one of them couldn't be sale anymore. Is that what we call Karma? Anyways, it felt awful, for my self-esteem mostly, but also because the pastry chef didn't even scream at me, she was so mad she couldn't say anything.... :S. An horrible day, like I said. At least my other coworkers found the way to cheer me up, so it didn't end up too badly. That's one thing I'm greatful for, working with a lot of great persons, we all get along pretty well and it's nice to work altogether :).
But yeah, about valentine stuff and all, it sucks on my side, I'm not gonna lie, loll :P. And I really wonder what is with people who ask those question and are actually sad for me when I answer negatively. I get it, it is weird that at my age, I've never been in a relationship, but still, is it that important to be in love, or just be in couple. I mean, I know it's important to feel love and all, but why should they feel concern about it, it's none of their business! Boy, this is starting to look like an editorial or something, it might look like I'm one frustrated single girl ! Or maybe I am after all.... loll ! Anyways, I can't wait for all this to be part of the past, and not look forward for the same shit next year.
Until then, I wish you will have a happy valentine's day, whatever you will be doing :).
-Robi XxxxX
=>by the way, do you know the singer Damien Rice? If not, you should check out his songs, mostly the ones from his album "O", its AMAZINGLY beautiful ! I totally feel in love with his melodies, loll ! Yeah, that's the thing with me, I don't fall in love with people, only with music and landscapes, bhahahah.
Jan 23, 2010
Title...title...well, here is another post!
Jeez Louise, I can never think of what to call these things. I mean, what is there to say? All I do is ramble, with no planned topic or direction.
Actually, that is something I really need to work on. None of my essays have a "clear thesis". I mean, what is that? I've spent years trying to figure it out!
Perhaps sometime that is what my philosophy paper should be about. What makes a thesis distinct. Well, I think that would only be useful for people who haven't actually studied philosophy academically, which is probably a lot of philosophers actually, and since I don't know maybe I'm not the person for the job :P
Anyways, I'm really proving my lack of direction point without meaning to. Why on earth am I talking about theses? That has got be the most boring topic ever!!
Hmm. Well, today I spent almost 4 hours cleaning my room. Not even the distracted type of cleaning- I was actively cleaning the whole time! Actually, that should give you an idea of just how unbelievably messy, and literally dirty, our room was before this. I removed 3 bags of recycling, 2 bags of garbage, swept up about a pound of dirt from the floor and under my bed...did laundry, washed dishes, and rearranged my furniture. I feel great!
The sad part is that it still isn't actually "clean" haha. Just not a disaster, and that is plenty in my opinion. Actually it was kinda enjoyable...I blasted music and zoned out, and Gwen's gone for today so I had the place to myself. I am feeling very anti-social today, and I feel really good that I didn't spend my whole day being useless like I have on so many Saturdays :P
So far, this semester has been a lot different than last one. I am being much more academically inclined, I've only drank 3 times and never in excess, I've been healthier, and I have had absolutely no play in the boys department.
Yet, somehow, it does not feel like high school :P
Heh heh heh.
Also, I've lost some of the weight I gained last semester...I think drinking less has a lot to do with it. Thank God, I really don't think my self esteem would have survived that much longer haha. I dunno, I think I've just been a lot more introverted this semester. In a good way.
I've been doing yoga more often too, which is awesome! Hallelujah! And tomorrow, I am going to a 3 hour meditation thing with one of the upper years. Actually, it's kinda random how that happened...we had like, one conversation in frosh week and have just seen each other occassionally since then and said hi, but never talked....you know, one of those people.
He is the leader of a society at Kings, and they were going to the meditation place on Wed, and I got an email for it (tho I have never done any of the other society things) and I saw him one day, and asked if I could join. He said yah, and told me where to meet etc...and my friend and I went to go, but actually we got the time wrong and they left without us...oops :S
Then, to embarrass myself further, I was like, oh I think I know where it is! Because it was called the Shambalah meditation centre, so I thought it was Hindi, and I thought I had seen some Hindi writing on a building down the street....we walked there and my friend burst out laughing. Turns out I had taken us to a Jewish synogague and it was Hebrew! Hahaha, good lord what a disaster.
THEN, that night some friends and I were coming in from smoking a joint, and who should walk by, but Wesley...typical! He was like, where were you earlier? And I was like, trying to explain, but I was so high... at King's being high isn't anything to bat an eye at so it didn't matter, but then I walked away and realized I had agreed to do meditation with him on Sunday, but hadn't remembered any details of our plan, if there were any. Oops...
Then yesterday, I had just gotten out of tutorial, and was walking past the Wardroom, which is our campus bar, and a coffee shop during the day, and Wesley was outside it (I have never seen him so often before) and was like, hey, do you want to get coffee? I was like uhh.... (I have such a way with words...NAWT! :P) And he was like, yes you do, come on. And so we walked in and he bought me coffee, and we sat down and had this really philosophical conversation, about like, what is reality etc. Actually, I was lost for parts of it I won't pretend I have developed quite that capacity to understand things yet....We talked about other things too...it was a good conversation, anyways. And now we are going to meditation on Sunday morning.
I have thought about it tho, and I am not interested in sexual relations with Wesley. For one thing, it would be too typical. I have heard him referred to as Wes-TD (Think: STD), and that is just not attractive. Also, I have few male friends at King's and I really miss having platonic males in my life. So yah, hopefully this is the beginning of a good friendship. Also, I'm really looking forward to the meditation, its good to feel centered.
Anyways, I have rambled long enough!
And I hope that story was interesting...it was just so random haha.
I hope to see a new post from you soon! (Hint hint... :D)
Love Edna
Actually, that is something I really need to work on. None of my essays have a "clear thesis". I mean, what is that? I've spent years trying to figure it out!
Perhaps sometime that is what my philosophy paper should be about. What makes a thesis distinct. Well, I think that would only be useful for people who haven't actually studied philosophy academically, which is probably a lot of philosophers actually, and since I don't know maybe I'm not the person for the job :P
Anyways, I'm really proving my lack of direction point without meaning to. Why on earth am I talking about theses? That has got be the most boring topic ever!!
Hmm. Well, today I spent almost 4 hours cleaning my room. Not even the distracted type of cleaning- I was actively cleaning the whole time! Actually, that should give you an idea of just how unbelievably messy, and literally dirty, our room was before this. I removed 3 bags of recycling, 2 bags of garbage, swept up about a pound of dirt from the floor and under my bed...did laundry, washed dishes, and rearranged my furniture. I feel great!
The sad part is that it still isn't actually "clean" haha. Just not a disaster, and that is plenty in my opinion. Actually it was kinda enjoyable...I blasted music and zoned out, and Gwen's gone for today so I had the place to myself. I am feeling very anti-social today, and I feel really good that I didn't spend my whole day being useless like I have on so many Saturdays :P
So far, this semester has been a lot different than last one. I am being much more academically inclined, I've only drank 3 times and never in excess, I've been healthier, and I have had absolutely no play in the boys department.
Yet, somehow, it does not feel like high school :P
Heh heh heh.
Also, I've lost some of the weight I gained last semester...I think drinking less has a lot to do with it. Thank God, I really don't think my self esteem would have survived that much longer haha. I dunno, I think I've just been a lot more introverted this semester. In a good way.
I've been doing yoga more often too, which is awesome! Hallelujah! And tomorrow, I am going to a 3 hour meditation thing with one of the upper years. Actually, it's kinda random how that happened...we had like, one conversation in frosh week and have just seen each other occassionally since then and said hi, but never talked....you know, one of those people.
He is the leader of a society at Kings, and they were going to the meditation place on Wed, and I got an email for it (tho I have never done any of the other society things) and I saw him one day, and asked if I could join. He said yah, and told me where to meet etc...and my friend and I went to go, but actually we got the time wrong and they left without us...oops :S
Then, to embarrass myself further, I was like, oh I think I know where it is! Because it was called the Shambalah meditation centre, so I thought it was Hindi, and I thought I had seen some Hindi writing on a building down the street....we walked there and my friend burst out laughing. Turns out I had taken us to a Jewish synogague and it was Hebrew! Hahaha, good lord what a disaster.
THEN, that night some friends and I were coming in from smoking a joint, and who should walk by, but Wesley...typical! He was like, where were you earlier? And I was like, trying to explain, but I was so high... at King's being high isn't anything to bat an eye at so it didn't matter, but then I walked away and realized I had agreed to do meditation with him on Sunday, but hadn't remembered any details of our plan, if there were any. Oops...
Then yesterday, I had just gotten out of tutorial, and was walking past the Wardroom, which is our campus bar, and a coffee shop during the day, and Wesley was outside it (I have never seen him so often before) and was like, hey, do you want to get coffee? I was like uhh.... (I have such a way with words...NAWT! :P) And he was like, yes you do, come on. And so we walked in and he bought me coffee, and we sat down and had this really philosophical conversation, about like, what is reality etc. Actually, I was lost for parts of it I won't pretend I have developed quite that capacity to understand things yet....We talked about other things too...it was a good conversation, anyways. And now we are going to meditation on Sunday morning.
I have thought about it tho, and I am not interested in sexual relations with Wesley. For one thing, it would be too typical. I have heard him referred to as Wes-TD (Think: STD), and that is just not attractive. Also, I have few male friends at King's and I really miss having platonic males in my life. So yah, hopefully this is the beginning of a good friendship. Also, I'm really looking forward to the meditation, its good to feel centered.
Anyways, I have rambled long enough!
And I hope that story was interesting...it was just so random haha.
I hope to see a new post from you soon! (Hint hint... :D)
Love Edna
Jan 21, 2010
Adulthood
My first post of the year, yay! Ahaha well it's about time you might think, and you're right! Gosh, it seems that the inspiration was at his lower these last weeks. Although I did lots of stuff. Like, you were saying you stopped drinking and partying the whole time, it's kinda the opposite for me, which I find great! Well, I'm certainly not going out every night, I couldn't, but I do more stuff with people and having more fun time than the past months :). Like that one night I went to a restaurant with 3 other friends, we arrived there around 11pm and the purpose of our visit there was to get dessert, but they were all hungry so they ordered whole plates and I got to pick on them, because I was still full from my previous meal. So we sat there for maybe 2 hours, and then we drove to one of my friend's house to play board games, which we all havent done in years, I mean, with friends. Because we never thought about it while we are with people because we always think they'll find it lame, but it is so fun! So we started that Taboo kinda game, but didnt exactly follow the right rule, like we werent counting points, ahaha no competition here, and we had so much fun that way. We were just laughing the whole time and talking, until around 4am I think, it was awesome. It's amazing how simple it seems, and how enjoyable it is :). Those are my kind of fun time, no big party, no crowds, no need to get drunk just for the purpose of it, just big real fun. 'Cause thats one thing I can admit, I'm not the kind of person who always needs to be surrounded and party every night. I can enjoy a fun night in a bar, but not that much often, and it all depends with who I'm with.
Speaking of acquaintances, well, kinda.... Have you realize, as we grow older, how it matters what you're up to in your life? I mean, when you meet up with someone you haven't see in a while, or when you talk to your relatives, they always ask you about your scolarity and your job? And sometimes, they don't even care about your answers, they just ask so they won't look "unsociable". I have my own idea on what they're thinking instead...
Example: "-Hey, long time no see! Whats up? Where are you now? (Probably the same since last time, pffff)
-Hi, well I'm in college studying Social Sciences. (Last time I saw her, she ask me the same damm question, what a retard )
-Really? Cool, and what are your plans after? (I knew it, eh boy, she is so boring)
-Humm, I'm not sure, I'll probably go to university, but don't know yet in what program... (Like she'll remember, whatever I answer, she probably won't care)
-ok.... (ackward.... What an empty answer, what am I suppose to say after that :P)
-But I might take a year off between the 2, to travel or something... (Why would I tell her that? She doesn't deserve more information about my life, we'll probably won't see eachother for another couple years, I hope :P)
-Alright..... (Ugh, traveling. What a pathetic option. I might ask her where, but it's even less interesting) and do you have a job outside college?
-Yep, in a bakery (But I wont tell her where, hell no)
-Cool, do you like it? (Pfff thats probably why she looks so huge since the last time)
-Yah, it's fun (like she expected me to say NAWT, loll)
-ok..... (whatever, I might as well just tell her about my life, which is alot more interesting)
Ahahah, ok, the conversation aren't always that sarcastic, well I hope so. And I know it's really common to ask those question, so they look like they care about the other person life. And it something to realize how time is guiding us. Meaning you always ask about the past, like what that person did all those years you haven't been in touch, then about what they're up to now, like present occupation, and relationships, then what are they're future plans, like job, appartment, kids even sometimes. Anyways, it's so different than what we were use to as kids. I guess that's growing up, to be aware of all this, instead of just the coming day.
All this reflections about growing up because the thought that this year I'll be 20 hit me. OMG. Twenty, it's something. It's actually HUGE. No more teen. I mean, I never really felt like a teen since i was like 14. You might hear me on this. And I always dreamed about being 21, and I KNOW that my best years are ahead, like between 25 and 30, but to explain it will be even more complicated that any thoughts I wrote about since the beginning of the blog. But being actually 20, it's frightening. As stupid as it seems :P. Of course it's frightening because I compare myself to other 20 ers and I don't find myself fitting in. I don't think like an adult, I don't act like one either. I again have some examples.
- I still fight with my brother on who's gonna sit in the front seat whenever we use the car and I'm not driving
- I still watch kids movie.... alone at the theater
- I still spend too much at the candy store
- I still read cartoons, in the bathroom :P
- I still ask my mother if the clothes I'm wearing match together
- I still miss the bus I should take to be on time at school or work, too much often :S
- And finally, for the moment, 'cause I can't think of anything else, I do still try to avoid walking on sidewalk cracks ^^.
All that, even if I'm mature, according to some people. How weird. Loll it's complicated to be the right age, isn't it? But I guess it all depends again with who I'm with, to determine my (mental) age, ha! And I know I shouldn't be thinking of how am I suppose to act depending on who is with me, but they do influence how I behave :P.
Anyhow, that's pretty much how I feel right now, adding the fact that I'm finishing college this semester and I "should" be registring for university by March 1st, ugh. I mean, I have no intention of doing this, because I know I will be traveling or having any kind of adventure, whichever, but I kinda had an argument with my mother about this and, well, it's frustrating.
But to end this long post in a good way, I went last night to this outside electro party, which happen only once a year during 3 week-ends, it's like a festival. Tho I don't like that much electro music, it was amazingly..... AWESOME!! It was so much fun, the beats were great, the crowd was dense tho, so you had to not be claustrauphobic :P. But it was a great night, fun like I haven't have in a long time, in a party I mean. And I might even go again next week, can't wait :D ! Ahahah, so that's it for now, well I think it's getting quite long anyway, hope it didn't take you too much time to read it :). Wish you a great week, and inspiration for a future post :D
-Robi XxxxX
Speaking of acquaintances, well, kinda.... Have you realize, as we grow older, how it matters what you're up to in your life? I mean, when you meet up with someone you haven't see in a while, or when you talk to your relatives, they always ask you about your scolarity and your job? And sometimes, they don't even care about your answers, they just ask so they won't look "unsociable". I have my own idea on what they're thinking instead...
Example: "-Hey, long time no see! Whats up? Where are you now? (Probably the same since last time, pffff)
-Hi, well I'm in college studying Social Sciences. (Last time I saw her, she ask me the same damm question, what a retard )
-Really? Cool, and what are your plans after? (I knew it, eh boy, she is so boring)
-Humm, I'm not sure, I'll probably go to university, but don't know yet in what program... (Like she'll remember, whatever I answer, she probably won't care)
-ok.... (ackward.... What an empty answer, what am I suppose to say after that :P)
-But I might take a year off between the 2, to travel or something... (Why would I tell her that? She doesn't deserve more information about my life, we'll probably won't see eachother for another couple years, I hope :P)
-Alright..... (Ugh, traveling. What a pathetic option. I might ask her where, but it's even less interesting) and do you have a job outside college?
-Yep, in a bakery (But I wont tell her where, hell no)
-Cool, do you like it? (Pfff thats probably why she looks so huge since the last time)
-Yah, it's fun (like she expected me to say NAWT, loll)
-ok..... (whatever, I might as well just tell her about my life, which is alot more interesting)
Ahahah, ok, the conversation aren't always that sarcastic, well I hope so. And I know it's really common to ask those question, so they look like they care about the other person life. And it something to realize how time is guiding us. Meaning you always ask about the past, like what that person did all those years you haven't been in touch, then about what they're up to now, like present occupation, and relationships, then what are they're future plans, like job, appartment, kids even sometimes. Anyways, it's so different than what we were use to as kids. I guess that's growing up, to be aware of all this, instead of just the coming day.
All this reflections about growing up because the thought that this year I'll be 20 hit me. OMG. Twenty, it's something. It's actually HUGE. No more teen. I mean, I never really felt like a teen since i was like 14. You might hear me on this. And I always dreamed about being 21, and I KNOW that my best years are ahead, like between 25 and 30, but to explain it will be even more complicated that any thoughts I wrote about since the beginning of the blog. But being actually 20, it's frightening. As stupid as it seems :P. Of course it's frightening because I compare myself to other 20 ers and I don't find myself fitting in. I don't think like an adult, I don't act like one either. I again have some examples.
- I still fight with my brother on who's gonna sit in the front seat whenever we use the car and I'm not driving
- I still watch kids movie.... alone at the theater
- I still spend too much at the candy store
- I still read cartoons, in the bathroom :P
- I still ask my mother if the clothes I'm wearing match together
- I still miss the bus I should take to be on time at school or work, too much often :S
- And finally, for the moment, 'cause I can't think of anything else, I do still try to avoid walking on sidewalk cracks ^^.
All that, even if I'm mature, according to some people. How weird. Loll it's complicated to be the right age, isn't it? But I guess it all depends again with who I'm with, to determine my (mental) age, ha! And I know I shouldn't be thinking of how am I suppose to act depending on who is with me, but they do influence how I behave :P.
Anyhow, that's pretty much how I feel right now, adding the fact that I'm finishing college this semester and I "should" be registring for university by March 1st, ugh. I mean, I have no intention of doing this, because I know I will be traveling or having any kind of adventure, whichever, but I kinda had an argument with my mother about this and, well, it's frustrating.
But to end this long post in a good way, I went last night to this outside electro party, which happen only once a year during 3 week-ends, it's like a festival. Tho I don't like that much electro music, it was amazingly..... AWESOME!! It was so much fun, the beats were great, the crowd was dense tho, so you had to not be claustrauphobic :P. But it was a great night, fun like I haven't have in a long time, in a party I mean. And I might even go again next week, can't wait :D ! Ahahah, so that's it for now, well I think it's getting quite long anyway, hope it didn't take you too much time to read it :). Wish you a great week, and inspiration for a future post :D
-Robi XxxxX
Jan 6, 2010
Merry Christmas, Happy New year, and to all a good....everything!
Hello!
So, there are a million and one things I could write about since last post, but I will just start with recent. Another time we can catch up on other things :)
Everyone is back at King's now, as of the 3rd, which is wonderful. I have given up drinking for this month and become a vegan, and I feel SO much better than I ever have at university! Praise the Lord! I was getting so unhealthy, so it's good to clean out my body etc. I thought that it might be boring to be sober when everyone else drinks, but it is still hilarious lol.
Last night, Gwen and I built a snowfort outside our residence. We were just bored and decided to do that. At first, we were like, do we need a reason for this? People are going to think we are crazy! But then we realized that we are not exactly known for our sanity anyways and went ahead and did it. It was so much fun! We were giggling and joking and carrying on, and people, especially males, kept stopping by to talk to us, so it was a real social event! None of them helped us build it, but they all wanted to give us their input as to how to make it better. Typical.
But yah, it was a good time. Will the alcoholic destroyed it later on last night, but since we iced it hopefully it seriously damaged his foot, that asshole.
One of the passersby was Aidan, and his friend Nigel. Actually, they came a couple times because they are quite avid smokers. I am pleased to say that we are legitimate friends. Like, things aren't awkward and we still get along etc etc. Thank God. Also, I think we are still quite (ok, well very :P) attracted to each other, but I do not think we will be getting back together. So I think that is a good situation. No confusion etc. Maybe sometime we can just casually hook up instead... heh heh.
Hmm, what else? I have gone back to absolutely loving King's. It is a great place. Also, now that I am single and am free to interact with males without wondering whether I am accidentally flirting with them etc., some old friendships are re-emerging. Not that I have my eye on anyone, just I have noticed it happening.
Due to our eccentric behaviour, I feel that it is possible that Gwen and I have the most fun out of anyone at King's. At the same time, I know this isn't true, but we do do a lot of hilarious things and spend time with very hilarious people...the jokes are at times exhausting, but it is a good time every day, which is wonderful. Haha, and yah I never told you about our shrooms adventure! We had absulotely the Best Night Ever!!! (We have a certain voice we use when saying that haha)...basically we ran all around Kings, and every single thing we encountered was an incredible discovery. And boy did we ever discover things! Its hard to describe, but it was absolutely amazing and SO much fun in every way. We laughed so hard and basically wreaked havoc around the school (and earned ourselves a meeting with the Dean, but since it was so close to the break it never happened, thank God!) But yah, it was great. What a bonding experience haha.
Anyways, I gotta go to class...Galileo's descriptions of the surface of the moon are of course, essential to my education hahaha...good lord.
Love Edna :)
So, there are a million and one things I could write about since last post, but I will just start with recent. Another time we can catch up on other things :)
Everyone is back at King's now, as of the 3rd, which is wonderful. I have given up drinking for this month and become a vegan, and I feel SO much better than I ever have at university! Praise the Lord! I was getting so unhealthy, so it's good to clean out my body etc. I thought that it might be boring to be sober when everyone else drinks, but it is still hilarious lol.
Last night, Gwen and I built a snowfort outside our residence. We were just bored and decided to do that. At first, we were like, do we need a reason for this? People are going to think we are crazy! But then we realized that we are not exactly known for our sanity anyways and went ahead and did it. It was so much fun! We were giggling and joking and carrying on, and people, especially males, kept stopping by to talk to us, so it was a real social event! None of them helped us build it, but they all wanted to give us their input as to how to make it better. Typical.
But yah, it was a good time. Will the alcoholic destroyed it later on last night, but since we iced it hopefully it seriously damaged his foot, that asshole.
One of the passersby was Aidan, and his friend Nigel. Actually, they came a couple times because they are quite avid smokers. I am pleased to say that we are legitimate friends. Like, things aren't awkward and we still get along etc etc. Thank God. Also, I think we are still quite (ok, well very :P) attracted to each other, but I do not think we will be getting back together. So I think that is a good situation. No confusion etc. Maybe sometime we can just casually hook up instead... heh heh.
Hmm, what else? I have gone back to absolutely loving King's. It is a great place. Also, now that I am single and am free to interact with males without wondering whether I am accidentally flirting with them etc., some old friendships are re-emerging. Not that I have my eye on anyone, just I have noticed it happening.
Due to our eccentric behaviour, I feel that it is possible that Gwen and I have the most fun out of anyone at King's. At the same time, I know this isn't true, but we do do a lot of hilarious things and spend time with very hilarious people...the jokes are at times exhausting, but it is a good time every day, which is wonderful. Haha, and yah I never told you about our shrooms adventure! We had absulotely the Best Night Ever!!! (We have a certain voice we use when saying that haha)...basically we ran all around Kings, and every single thing we encountered was an incredible discovery. And boy did we ever discover things! Its hard to describe, but it was absolutely amazing and SO much fun in every way. We laughed so hard and basically wreaked havoc around the school (and earned ourselves a meeting with the Dean, but since it was so close to the break it never happened, thank God!) But yah, it was great. What a bonding experience haha.
Anyways, I gotta go to class...Galileo's descriptions of the surface of the moon are of course, essential to my education hahaha...good lord.
Love Edna :)
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