Awh, dammit! I had a really witty response post to your Valentines post all written out, and my computer mysteriously restarted! Why!?? Anyways, I appreciate that post for sure. Our cafeteria had all these hearts and really aweful cheesy decorations up for the whole first half of February...God it was depressing :P Especially since my ex also goes to that caf :S
Anyways, wrote an essay on V-day. Maybe that actually means I'm taking my life in the right direction.
Anyways, my friends are being SO lame tonight. 2nd night of spring break, and they're writing the essays they took lates on last week. Assholes! I am pretty high and just all day I have had so much energy, and THEY WON"T DO ANYTHING WITH ME!!! It's pathetic!
Oh well. Whatever.
I will corrupt them soon >)
Hmm, what to write about?
I have been working a bunch lately, which is good. My boss is pretty nutty, but she's kinda cool and the customers are really awesome. So it's a good job...plus, I am just SO grateful to have gotten a job. I thought I was going to go this whole year without finding one!
Also, I've been enjoying my school lately...like, the philosophers we have been studying lately are so much more applicable to our lives in this time. And their thoughts have been so amazing. We even did Karl Marx! He was such a persuasive writer...after 5 pages I was a communist! :p
Hmm, what else?
I have a sexy lab partner! Thank God for my one lonely science credit! Oh boy, is he ever. Seems really cool (in all our three minutes of conversation). But yah, we ended up being partners and are meeting for lunch and to "discuss our project" Fuck it, I've already failed one semester of tutorial, let's not pretend I would go to all these efforts without ulterior motives in mind. Except that they are superior motives. Spending time with somebody I actually think is cool and am interested in (not just his looks were appealing) is much higher on my list than making a slideshow about a psychological disorder. Call me crazy!
Anyways, hopefully that does well.
Uhmm, what else? Well, its Spring Break! Awesome, hopefully I leave Halifax at some time...
Maybe I'll hop a train tomorrow. I have three days off, why not?
:) Peace!
Edna
Feb 20, 2010
Feb 11, 2010
Valentine crap :P
What a day I had today. A hell of a day, should I say. It was pretty bad, for the self-esteem mostly :P. Ok I'll write about it because it would be really mean to start writing about this and then leave it unexplain, and because it will probably feel better after, and because I might find a way to laugh about it!
So here IT is: as you have realize, it's almost Valentine's day. Hooray...... NAWT :P ahahah. And from all I could remember, I never had any date or any kind of valentine mate on this day. And usually, on other years, it wouldn't bother me that much, it would be like "meh, watever...." But this year, I can't figure out exactly why, but it does bother me, to be surrounded by happy couples cheering for Valentine's day and all the cheezy things going on about it. Ugh, kill me now :P. And the worst it's that I work in a fancy bakery/pastry shop. Hell on earth should I say. Loll, well it's not that bad, but every shift I do I'm surrounded by red or pink flowers and chocolates and heart-shaped things, everything to not make me forget that IT is coming. I know I shouldn't be upset about it, after all, I'm certainly not the last single person on earth. But it's not being single that bothers me. It's being reminded that I am. You know, like every time someone you haven't seen in a while ends up asking you : "so is there anyone in your life right now?" or "how's your love life?". Or when your boss walks up to you and ask you very seriously "So, who's your valentine mate *Robi ?" and when I answer "no one", the only thing she could manage to answer back is " Oh that's sad, you shouldn't be alone on Valentine's day". I swear, that really happen, today actually. Ok, maybe she didn't mean no arm, because she's kinda nice usually, but that was just..... bad! And it happen just before I dropped a dozen of fancy valentine decorated cookies I had just wrapped. And they were all ruined. Every single one of them couldn't be sale anymore. Is that what we call Karma? Anyways, it felt awful, for my self-esteem mostly, but also because the pastry chef didn't even scream at me, she was so mad she couldn't say anything.... :S. An horrible day, like I said. At least my other coworkers found the way to cheer me up, so it didn't end up too badly. That's one thing I'm greatful for, working with a lot of great persons, we all get along pretty well and it's nice to work altogether :).
But yeah, about valentine stuff and all, it sucks on my side, I'm not gonna lie, loll :P. And I really wonder what is with people who ask those question and are actually sad for me when I answer negatively. I get it, it is weird that at my age, I've never been in a relationship, but still, is it that important to be in love, or just be in couple. I mean, I know it's important to feel love and all, but why should they feel concern about it, it's none of their business! Boy, this is starting to look like an editorial or something, it might look like I'm one frustrated single girl ! Or maybe I am after all.... loll ! Anyways, I can't wait for all this to be part of the past, and not look forward for the same shit next year.
Until then, I wish you will have a happy valentine's day, whatever you will be doing :).
-Robi XxxxX
=>by the way, do you know the singer Damien Rice? If not, you should check out his songs, mostly the ones from his album "O", its AMAZINGLY beautiful ! I totally feel in love with his melodies, loll ! Yeah, that's the thing with me, I don't fall in love with people, only with music and landscapes, bhahahah.
So here IT is: as you have realize, it's almost Valentine's day. Hooray...... NAWT :P ahahah. And from all I could remember, I never had any date or any kind of valentine mate on this day. And usually, on other years, it wouldn't bother me that much, it would be like "meh, watever...." But this year, I can't figure out exactly why, but it does bother me, to be surrounded by happy couples cheering for Valentine's day and all the cheezy things going on about it. Ugh, kill me now :P. And the worst it's that I work in a fancy bakery/pastry shop. Hell on earth should I say. Loll, well it's not that bad, but every shift I do I'm surrounded by red or pink flowers and chocolates and heart-shaped things, everything to not make me forget that IT is coming. I know I shouldn't be upset about it, after all, I'm certainly not the last single person on earth. But it's not being single that bothers me. It's being reminded that I am. You know, like every time someone you haven't seen in a while ends up asking you : "so is there anyone in your life right now?" or "how's your love life?". Or when your boss walks up to you and ask you very seriously "So, who's your valentine mate *Robi ?" and when I answer "no one", the only thing she could manage to answer back is " Oh that's sad, you shouldn't be alone on Valentine's day". I swear, that really happen, today actually. Ok, maybe she didn't mean no arm, because she's kinda nice usually, but that was just..... bad! And it happen just before I dropped a dozen of fancy valentine decorated cookies I had just wrapped. And they were all ruined. Every single one of them couldn't be sale anymore. Is that what we call Karma? Anyways, it felt awful, for my self-esteem mostly, but also because the pastry chef didn't even scream at me, she was so mad she couldn't say anything.... :S. An horrible day, like I said. At least my other coworkers found the way to cheer me up, so it didn't end up too badly. That's one thing I'm greatful for, working with a lot of great persons, we all get along pretty well and it's nice to work altogether :).
But yeah, about valentine stuff and all, it sucks on my side, I'm not gonna lie, loll :P. And I really wonder what is with people who ask those question and are actually sad for me when I answer negatively. I get it, it is weird that at my age, I've never been in a relationship, but still, is it that important to be in love, or just be in couple. I mean, I know it's important to feel love and all, but why should they feel concern about it, it's none of their business! Boy, this is starting to look like an editorial or something, it might look like I'm one frustrated single girl ! Or maybe I am after all.... loll ! Anyways, I can't wait for all this to be part of the past, and not look forward for the same shit next year.
Until then, I wish you will have a happy valentine's day, whatever you will be doing :).
-Robi XxxxX
=>by the way, do you know the singer Damien Rice? If not, you should check out his songs, mostly the ones from his album "O", its AMAZINGLY beautiful ! I totally feel in love with his melodies, loll ! Yeah, that's the thing with me, I don't fall in love with people, only with music and landscapes, bhahahah.
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