Adulthood

My first post of the year, yay! Ahaha well it's about time you might think, and you're right! Gosh, it seems that the inspiration was at his lower these last weeks. Although I did lots of stuff. Like, you were saying you stopped drinking and partying the whole time, it's kinda the opposite for me, which I find great! Well, I'm certainly not going out every night, I couldn't, but I do more stuff with people and having more fun time than the past months :). Like that one night I went to a restaurant with 3 other friends, we arrived there around 11pm and the purpose of our visit there was to get dessert, but they were all hungry so they ordered whole plates and I got to pick on them, because I was still full from my previous meal. So we sat there for maybe 2 hours, and then we drove to one of my friend's house to play board games, which we all havent done in years, I mean, with friends. Because we never thought about it while we are with people because we always think they'll find it lame, but it is so fun! So we started that Taboo kinda game, but didnt exactly follow the right rule, like we werent counting points, ahaha no competition here, and we had so much fun that way. We were just laughing the whole time and talking, until around 4am I think, it was awesome. It's amazing how simple it seems, and how enjoyable it is :). Those are my kind of fun time, no big party, no crowds, no need to get drunk just for the purpose of it, just big real fun. 'Cause thats one thing I can admit, I'm not the kind of person who always needs to be surrounded and party every night. I can enjoy a fun night in a bar, but not that much often, and it all depends with who I'm with.

Speaking of acquaintances, well, kinda.... Have you realize, as we grow older, how it matters what you're up to in your life? I mean, when you meet up with someone you haven't see in a while, or when you talk to your relatives, they always ask you about your scolarity and your job? And sometimes, they don't even care about your answers, they just ask so they won't look "unsociable". I have my own idea on what they're thinking instead...
Example: "-Hey, long time no see! Whats up? Where are you now? (Probably the same since last time, pffff)
-Hi, well I'm in college studying Social Sciences. (Last time I saw her, she ask me the same damm question, what a retard )
-Really? Cool, and what are your plans after? (I knew it, eh boy, she is so boring)
-Humm, I'm not sure, I'll probably go to university, but don't know yet in what program... (Like she'll remember, whatever I answer, she probably won't care)
-ok.... (ackward.... What an empty answer, what am I suppose to say after that :P)
-But I might take a year off between the 2, to travel or something... (Why would I tell her that? She doesn't deserve more information about my life, we'll probably won't see eachother for another couple years, I hope :P)
-Alright..... (Ugh, traveling. What a pathetic option. I might ask her where, but it's even less interesting) and do you have a job outside college?
-Yep, in a bakery (But I wont tell her where, hell no)
-Cool, do you like it? (Pfff thats probably why she looks so huge since the last time)
-Yah, it's fun (like she expected me to say NAWT, loll)
-ok..... (whatever, I might as well just tell her about my life, which is alot more interesting)

Ahahah, ok, the conversation aren't always that sarcastic, well I hope so. And I know it's really common to ask those question, so they look like they care about the other person life. And it something to realize how time is guiding us. Meaning you always ask about the past, like what that person did all those years you haven't been in touch, then about what they're up to now, like present occupation, and relationships, then what are they're future plans, like job, appartment, kids even sometimes. Anyways, it's so different than what we were use to as kids. I guess that's growing up, to be aware of all this, instead of just the coming day.

All this reflections about growing up because the thought that this year I'll be 20 hit me. OMG. Twenty, it's something. It's actually HUGE. No more teen. I mean, I never really felt like a teen since i was like 14. You might hear me on this. And I always dreamed about being 21, and I KNOW that my best years are ahead, like between 25 and 30, but to explain it will be even more complicated that any thoughts I wrote about since the beginning of the blog. But being actually 20, it's frightening. As stupid as it seems :P. Of course it's frightening because I compare myself to other 20 ers and I don't find myself fitting in. I don't think like an adult, I don't act like one either. I again have some examples.
- I still fight with my brother on who's gonna sit in the front seat whenever we use the car and I'm not driving
- I still watch kids movie.... alone at the theater
- I still spend too much at the candy store
- I still read cartoons, in the bathroom :P
- I still ask my mother if the clothes I'm wearing match together
- I still miss the bus I should take to be on time at school or work, too much often :S
- And finally, for the moment, 'cause I can't think of anything else, I do still try to avoid walking on sidewalk cracks ^^.
All that, even if I'm mature, according to some people. How weird. Loll it's complicated to be the right age, isn't it? But I guess it all depends again with who I'm with, to determine my (mental) age, ha! And I know I shouldn't be thinking of how am I suppose to act depending on who is with me, but they do influence how I behave :P.

Anyhow, that's pretty much how I feel right now, adding the fact that I'm finishing college this semester and I "should" be registring for university by March 1st, ugh. I mean, I have no intention of doing this, because I know I will be traveling or having any kind of adventure, whichever, but I kinda had an argument with my mother about this and, well, it's frustrating.

But to end this long post in a good way, I went last night to this outside electro party, which happen only once a year during 3 week-ends, it's like a festival. Tho I don't like that much electro music, it was amazingly..... AWESOME!! It was so much fun, the beats were great, the crowd was dense tho, so you had to not be claustrauphobic :P. But it was a great night, fun like I haven't have in a long time, in a party I mean. And I might even go again next week, can't wait :D ! Ahahah, so that's it for now, well I think it's getting quite long anyway, hope it didn't take you too much time to read it :). Wish you a great week, and inspiration for a future post :D
-Robi XxxxX